Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

8,884 Members

129,555 Posts

0 Online

ivybelle 07/25/2009

So this is what's going on with me: I can't stay asleep, my mind is going a thousand miles an hour, I keep obsessing over things I did 10 years ago, I am having paranoid episodes (i.e., one night I was terrified that someone was going to break in), my dreams are overly vivid, but I really don't want to deal with anyone or get out of bed even.

I feel depressed but all of this other stuff is going on at the same time. I have been taking klonopin on a fairly regular basis for the last couple days to sort of level things out, and its helping a little but I still feel like I'm coming out of my skin.

I have a pdoc appointment Tuesday so I'm hoping I can hold out until then. Anyone else ever feel this way? I kind of need to know I'm not alone in this because right now I'm feeling like I'm losing it.

deleted_user 07/25/2009

sounds a bit more like a manic episode to me with all the racing thoughts.....don't really know if the paranoia is because of that or just a normal symptom that is occurring.

Shelly4 07/25/2009

It sounds like mixed episodes that I have had, add to the mix agitation, crying, and being very emotional and it could very well be mixed.

Make sure you make a note of all your symptoms and how long going on for your pdoc, it will help. This is a very difficult state to be in and all you can do is try to stay calm and sleep whenever you can. Meditation helps me alot or trying to keep my mind busy with focused thought if possible. I know it is difficult but will help if you can. Try to listen to moderate music not too high or low and do everything you do if stable, or try..... Best wishes for your outcome.

xo

deleted_user 07/25/2009

If Tuesday feels way too far away and difficult to reach, you need to get help now.It doesn't matter what you think the name is for what yr experiencing, it's how terrifying the gradient shift is. So be safe and get help.

deleted_user 07/25/2009

i'm with ozmayor. hang in there mate and good luck.

deleted_user 07/25/2009

could be mixed, could be manic - i think it depends upon your diagnosis. sound slike you got some OCD thrown in there as well (ruminations over 10-yr old stuff & paranoia) - my GF gets that - has had it really bad at points (spent a day crawling around her house on the floor because she thought her neighbors were snipers - that kinda thing) - for her that represents a mixed episode with paranoia bordering on psychotic - but her dx is BP2 - see?

hang in there - but if Tuesday seems just impossible to make call yr pdoc ASAP.

ivybelle 07/25/2009

Thanks....I am not super paranoid (i.e., crawling on the floor) it's just sort of mild thing where I'm not trusting my friends because I think they are mad at me etc, and staying awake all night with the light on until the sun comes up. It's bad but I guess it's manageable at the moment. My mom is here with me and I told her how I'm feeling so I'm not alone and she knows to look out for me. I think I can manage until Tuesday though.

deleted_user 07/25/2009

I am also bipolar in a mixed state and when ill become just like you are describing Its not nice
Can you call your pdoc? I have had my meds increased when this happens.
For me its seroquel.
You will be okay and it will come under control
Bless you

deleted_user 07/25/2009

sounds like a mixwd episode to me-mania and depression at the same time. make sure your pdoc knows how you felt

deleted_user 07/25/2009

contact pdoc or hospital asap

deleted_user 07/25/2009

I used to be like this ...the paranoia can be the mania getting too high.Can you really wait until Tuesday? Sounds like you should get some help now...why suffer when you don't have to?

Join the Conversation