the irritability just won't stop. I saw my dr. Yesterday. She told me that in order to oversee my meds, I have to pay my former psych np a visit. She said she can't take over my care without me doing this. So I called her to make an appointment and she left me a voicemail saying "we don't do 'freebies' anymore".  She saw me in the past when I couldn't afford to because they didn't accept my insurance.  She said maybe we could do a phone visit. I tried to call her back but she doesn't answer. Plus, I had a tiff with my douchebag landlord. I emailed him to let him him know that someone in the house (there ar multiple units in the house) was smoking. I cannot stand that smell. It triggers me because my parents were abusive and chain smokers when I was a kid. I link the two. I also asked if he would please go easy on my rental renewal.  His response "when you track down the smell, let me know.  And also, I am running a business, not a charity".  I responded in a respectful way. He pisses me the hell off.  I am feeling very financially vulnerable, and him saying this really triggered me.  

Also, every noise is an assault on my ears. It is amplified 1,000x and it is making me even MORE irritable. My neighbor was playing his bass guitar when I got home from work, and it pissed me off.  I stomped around and made as much noise as possible. Last night I was so irritable I had a hard time going to sleep.  

Also, I have to travel downstate again for work in a few days.  I didn't think it was making me anxious, but the closer it gets, the more I think I might be very anxious. 

Too many things are happening. I feel very overwhelmed by it all.  My irritability is mounting and I don't know how to make it stop.