Okay, here is a follow up train of thought. I hate my patients. I hate that they don't do what I ask, that they complain about things I have no control over and ask me to do things that I can't do. One even asked me to commit fraud. I hate them. Now honestly that is not fair. I didn't before. I think what is happened is my anger has turned onto them instead of turning onto myself. I don't feel as helpless or depressed but I need to put this anger somewhere.

Big hug for you Sept..... Can you take a medical leave?? and get some help?

I agree that a therapist can help find some coping skills and work through your anger.... Anger is a secondary emotion so something is causing it

You can end up getting yourself into hot water if patients start to complain about how they're treated and that will make things worse

Maybe a life coach if you'd be happier doing something else this could be explored??

It can be frustrating working with sick people when we are sick ourselves..... Big hug.....xo

I've worked with elderly, coming from a place of empty, it's very hard to give....reduction of hours? and therapy? or new vocation?

I work in assisted living and I understand it is easy to get angry at patients for things out of your control. Have you considered a whole knee change in career? That may be the ticket you need. I do agree that swing a therapist can be a huge help

I would find a Therapist ASAP to talk to about things, before they escalate and if possible perhaps take a break from what you're doing.

It doesn't sound like it's really safe atmosphere for your patients and it doesn't sound like this is a healthy thing for you. Talking to a Therapist and getting some Anger Management help, learning some coping skills, learning where the anger is manifesting from and dealing with the core issues can get you to a healthy mental state.

You may need to take a break from this career for a while and do something else. If your doing physical therapy with these patients, that takes quite a bit of patience from the beginning, as most people aren't thrilled with PT. If your already angry it won't take much to get more irritated by a patient who doesn't want to do the exercises or things you've asked them to do....

Regardless, I'd definitely find a Therapist.

If you’re bipolar, then a therapist is one of the essentials. Also, though, as I read your post I got the impression that maybe you’ve outgrown the particular line of work you’re in. Is it time to take the plunge, summon your courage and look for a different type of employment?