I am having such a bad time right now. I don't know what's going on. Everything seems to be going wrong in my life. I am so down. I just want to be happy again. Right now I am so upset with myself. I shouldn't have eaten all of that and I shouldn't have spent money. I also haven't done the homework I had planed to have done by now. I want to cut so, so, so badly. I really think I might end up doing it tonight. I know I shouldn't but I just need a release. I don't have anyone to talk to right now. My best friend's bf is in town and I don't want to take up her time with him. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I am having a breakdown.