i need support too. I miss rl support groups with real time responses. Gentle hugs to you irish. Your right, in just a few days it will be over.

Warm comforting hugs to you and you will be fine as you said. I'm good at worrying too so ur not alone.

Big hug for you sweetie.... Sending you some peace and calm to get you threw..... xo

Sending my best wishes irish.

I'll send my best wishes too. Even though I'm quite new here, I like the people here and want to see you all do well. Despite how much you're currently struggling Irish, I've seen you write a lot of supportive posts to other people, which shows to me that even when things are at their most difficult, you still want to help other people. In my opinion, that shows a lot of strength and that you're a good person. I hope things start to get better soon for you.

Hang in there the name of the game is survival, and this will pass too .. Hugs...

big hugs of support right back at you. thank you for being here for me. it is very much appreciated. I am gathering myself to myself to get ready to go to wolfgangs - he is going to drive us to dublin in the morning. butterflies flipping and flapping in my stomach! I haven't tried the ativan yet. Is it stronger than xanax?

oh my god, just went to get the ativan and tramadol for the surgery and the pharmacist forgot to give them to me. all closed on sundays here! making panicked phone calls to try and find someone to help! good thoughts please!

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time...if worse comes to worse they can do something for you at the hospital Irish....

Sending prayers and healing vibes your way! Good on you for calling Woldgang and getting extra help....

Sending prayers for strength and peace. You totally got this!

mayb, the hospital letter said to bring them as they would not provide! anyway after several phonecalls i finally got someone who lives in the town which has a branch of my pharmacy and get me the emergency number from the door! I called it and and the pharmacist i dealt with on friday came out and met me there an hour in the opposite direction to which i was travelling! at least I got it. phew! Finally got to wolfgang's at about 9pm and he had dinner ready and the fire lit so i am settled into bed now with a small glass of port (which i'm not supposed to be drinking before surgery but fuck it!) and a mug of coffee and a huge sigh of relief to have gotten this far. this time tomorrow it will be over and done with. fingers, toes, arms, legs and everything else crossed! thank you all. you're wonderful!

Gentle hug and prayers for tomorrow sweetie.... xo

Sending hugs and prayers and love your way!

ok, it started at 10.45am and in the beginning wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, I had xanax, tramadol, lidocaine patch and ativan on board, got through that first surgery - lasted about 45mins then they had to test what they got and finally told me they got all the cancer. then a couple of hours later (i took another ativan and xanax, didn't tell them) they brought me back in gave me half my dose of ativan and they did the rest which was the pain of the earlier surgery multiplied a few times! luckily they were able to use a flap to cover the hole, then they did a shave biopsy of a mole on my lip and a punch biopsy on my cheek.this all took about an hour and a half. I won't get those results for a few weeks. half my face is bandaged. thank god I had the extra meds on board because it def. hurt. my daughter met us there and we had a nice cup of coffee and then used sat nav to get out of the city and got home again by about 9.30pm having stopped for dinner. relaxed again in bed with coffee and port - neither allowed - i don't care - in pain - but hopefully will get some sleep and each day will be better from here on in. thanks for getting me through this.!

Many, many gentle hugs. Thank you for keeping us up to date. You have been in my prayers. Prayers for strength and a smooth recovery!