Sigh...I was a nurse too and made decent money and I had future goals, now I am on disability and can't keep a job more than a couple of months

Its not too late to change your life . Even if its in just one way . Your not dead yet so there is always the potential for things to change . That's what keep me going. Right now things are on a plateau for me and its one I don't care for in many ways but I know I have tomorrow and if I want it I can make some changes. You need to learn to love yourself though , maybe that's a good place to start.

I've had to learn to love myself my entire life...I can hate so well ya know?? Don't know if I even know how anymore....

Rachyl- I'm on disability too and man is it bittersweet, I freaking hate it but can't get by without it!

Tat69,
Me too! I make just enough to cover expenses but not much leftover for fun. Sigh

Thanks so much Gina.....really appreciate that, made me chuckle too.....:-)

Same here Rachyl same here....sigh

I worry about what my life will be in the years to come....can't ever go back to nursing because of the stress. Don't know how to do anything else...stressors and I don't mix well at all even with the meds.

Well babes, i know whats goin on & i know how you feel, & all i can say is im sorry, & i fuckin hate that i wish i knew what to say i wish to god i could make it better for you, you deserve so much more!!! Like Gina said next week is a whole new week full of possibilities. I just know in my gut that things will change for you, you are to wonderful for them not to. Please have faith, & never give up hope, hell if we dont have hope, what do we have?
Please let me know if there is anything i can do, cuz girl i would do anything.
love & hugs always

Tats, I worry about if I will ever return to nursing and will I be on disability forever

I made much more at age 24 to 30 than I do now at 47. Thankful I was obsessive about saving back then, it's saving my ass now and allowing a modicum amount of freedom.

Feeling what you are saying !

I once was SOMEONE ...someone with a unique job....unique skills...someone who people sat up and noticed when I walked into a room

Now I wonder where that woman is...is there a part of her still lurking in me, or has that all gone forever?

It suxs

I know exactly what you're talking about....and it sucks.

I wish I had words of wisdom or advice or something. But I hope that you know that you're not alone.

you're definitely not alone.
HUGE hugs.

Thanks to everyone for your kind advice and support.....

Man this sure does suck no other way of putting it....

I just find myself questioning what the heck it is I am supposed to be doing with my life right now....not just right now but alot of the time.

Dd I now just what you mean, it was the same for me. Now nadda...sigh

I know they say everyone has a purpose......but I am just not believe that anymore....I feel very useless these days, not much to talk to anyone about because I really have no life.

i think you need to find interests to prosue so that you dont just think about it all the time the more time you are doing nothign the more your thinking your life is going nowhere but there is nothing wrong with doing nothing if that what you want to do you knwo its jsut a thought process about it that is complocated not the events but the thoughts you jsut need to find some piece of mind and not think that you are worthless becouse your not doing the old things youre living a new live and it involdes new things but if it is not enough then find somethign to make you feel more into life