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I have a diagnosis of BP2, so I generally am okay and then have swings into depression.
I know it doesn't last forever. I know there is an end. I know things get better.
But every time I get to that suicidal, hopeless place, I feel like it's absolutely intolerable. Like yes, it ends, but what's the point if this down period keeps popping up? I just want to be done with this madness. I get so stuck when I'm down, and it feels like all the work I've done hits the fan. The mood changes, and the disordered eating pops up again, I have violent thoughts, I self-harm, I drink too much, nightmares, and just want to get a gun. When I'm "okay" I can cope with difficult feeling just fine, but that dark mood feels like it's too much.
For the most part, I get through it by distracting myself as much as I can and waiting it out. Exercise helps, but I need to have the energy to actually go make that happen. Being around people helps if I can hold it together enough to be presentable around them.
Does anyone have any other tips for getting through that hopelessness?
I know it doesn't last forever. I know there is an end. I know things get better.
But every time I get to that suicidal, hopeless place, I feel like it's absolutely intolerable. Like yes, it ends, but what's the point if this down period keeps popping up? I just want to be done with this madness. I get so stuck when I'm down, and it feels like all the work I've done hits the fan. The mood changes, and the disordered eating pops up again, I have violent thoughts, I self-harm, I drink too much, nightmares, and just want to get a gun. When I'm "okay" I can cope with difficult feeling just fine, but that dark mood feels like it's too much.
For the most part, I get through it by distracting myself as much as I can and waiting it out. Exercise helps, but I need to have the energy to actually go make that happen. Being around people helps if I can hold it together enough to be presentable around them.
Does anyone have any other tips for getting through that hopelessness?
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Keep working at it. It takes strength and energy and we're worth every bit!
I know that exercise is difficult when you are draggin ass, but sometimes just a short stroll can help. Maybe kick your feet up and read a good book. Rent a movie that you've been wanting to watch. I even color at times. There are these really cool Mosaics. you can find some on the computer and print some off, or buy books of them. It's very relaxing and doesn't require alot of energy.
I hope you feel better soon....
And on that depressing note, I'm going to go workout.
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