Just as an add on; I feel really crapy that I have been to rehab now 3 times and just can't get it kicked. Anyone else struggle with alcohol or drug issues?

I think the odds are good that if you keep fighting Then you'll win. Of course it helps to learn things along the way. I learned that I could behave quite normally in order to get out of the system.

It's great to see you sweetie.... I think continuing with meetings and support after rehab is a key element... I think rehab itself is the easier part...It's changing ones life without the 24/7 support that takes a lot of work... It's a total life change
Good for you Michael ... There is active addiction boards on DS that I think are very supportive... Big hug for you and a blessing..xo

What're you hooked on? only thing I ever had trouble with was cigarettes...heroin and cocain a few time I tried and $40 everytime later I was like "well that was kind of expensive and didn't last long enough"...and I wouldn't be back for months...the dealers thought I was weird when coke didn't hook me....

Keep at it! I'm rootin for ya...

I hope you stay out of rehab.

We are fighting the illness with you everyday, you are not alone.

Everyday we are sane is a good day.

Every time you do something for yourself or someone else it's a good thing.

Lead the best life you can.

MJ

thanks all, it's good to be back and I relieze now that I need the support here.

Well, I'm done struggling with alcohol and drugs. Yeah, it's very hard. Both emotionally and physically. But it's possible. I'm so glad I quit, my life is so much better and clearer.
The feeling of empowerment when you kick something is TREMENDOUS!! It keeps me going when I'm tempted..I know feel that I'm better than that (drugs/alcohol) and I will not let it run my life again.
Keep trying, that's the only thing you can do. At some point you'll get tired of trying and quit for good.
BEST OF LUCK TO YOU!!!!