Hi im finding things a bit difficult at moment, my husbands wages are only just paying the bills and keeping a roof over our heads, he feels the pressure of that. But i am working 52 hours a week at moment to try and help with the bills and shopping and christmas its so hard. My head doc has uped my lamactil this week but i still feel like im going to vilently explode my 7 year old child has been of school for a full week with gastric flue. I took a week of work for a brake but ended up more stressed. I feel guilty because i love my family and my children so much but i feel like its to much i no i need to get a grip and my hubby tells me
when im stressing but i tell him to fuck off, he is a reasonable man but i can see he feeling the pressure to and he is worried about me he has also been up with my 7 year old at bad times a night and pulls his wait in all the write places. I am very lucky to have this man you dont find a man like my husband very often. For the last 3 weeks i have been hypermanic then got a bit manic people at work and home cant cope with me like that. I feel a bit normal just on edge. Sorry to go on i will shut up now thank you for reading this.