A couple of days ago a bout of depression has smacked me in the face. I've been lying in bed most of the day. Not really sleeping just sort of thinking. When I get up to get for something, I start to cry. Then I have to listen to my son and his grandma's problems which I'm simpathetic to, but makes me feel worse. I don't how much more I can take. I hang on because my medication will be changed soon. I know many of you have gone through this. Big hugs to all of you.
The only person in my life works constantly, whereas I am in a chronic pain/bipolar crisis constantly. I am not allowed to cry and I get talked at in the same matter as someone who you know is mindlessing annoying. I do not know how much longer I can survive like this. The pain is relentless. I need surgery, yet cant get it. I am alone screaming in bed all day. I do jot want this life
It's a lovely sunny day that's great for a walk but my chronic kidney disease or CKD has depleted my energy today and I am barely able to get out of bed. I walk on a cane because of it because usually I can push through with 40% kidney function and therefore only 40% oxygen in my blood for energy. But about once a month or so willpower can't push through and neuropathy pain is high, too. It...