Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I've been on SSDI for over 6 years now, I used to work as a very successful nurse and mother. I'm feeling badly because I don't see much of a future for myself....and for my now 16yo son either. In my world parents help out their kids, help them get a head start in life maybe by helping pay half for a car, hopefully matching what the child has already saved on his own by working hard at a first job, slipping them a few extra bucks here and there when the money gets tight for them. I won't be able to do those things...his father never pays any child support so I have nothing to save....when he turns 18 I will lose the SSDI that I receive for him making my income totally ridiculous and putting me in an even lower income bracket than I am now.
I was raised by a very independent mom, to be very independent, to work hard, do a good job, be good to others, did I mention work hard?? Well, here I am depending on the government...living check to check each month and praying everyday that nothing huge happens that will take a boat load of money to fix...the car, the furnace, the A/C. I was always told be able to support myself financially, and I cannot.
I feel like a total loser, like I have let my kids down in a huge way and made their lives 10 times harder than need be. I want the best for them....I was on my way to becoming a Registered Nurse...I had plans for my future, big plans, I had money when I needed it, and I am so pissed that I let the doctors and anyone else who told me I was sick and listened to them, but I know being pissed won't get me anywhere.....sigh
Sorry this is so long...have alot on my mind right now and I needed to get some of it out because it's eating at me pretty bad......thanks for reading.
Deb
I was raised by a very independent mom, to be very independent, to work hard, do a good job, be good to others, did I mention work hard?? Well, here I am depending on the government...living check to check each month and praying everyday that nothing huge happens that will take a boat load of money to fix...the car, the furnace, the A/C. I was always told be able to support myself financially, and I cannot.
I feel like a total loser, like I have let my kids down in a huge way and made their lives 10 times harder than need be. I want the best for them....I was on my way to becoming a Registered Nurse...I had plans for my future, big plans, I had money when I needed it, and I am so pissed that I let the doctors and anyone else who told me I was sick and listened to them, but I know being pissed won't get me anywhere.....sigh
Sorry this is so long...have alot on my mind right now and I needed to get some of it out because it's eating at me pretty bad......thanks for reading.
Deb
I hate being bp to begin with, then the meds that make me feel like a zombie, all the dreams I had of having a normal life seem so far away. I have a toddler too, she doesn't know anything about money so if I can just give her lots of hugs, kisses, smiles and love I'm pretty sure she will be ok.
However I know the first step in dealing with my life is getting over the damn stigmas and feeling like I'm limited by them, oh dear I think I just made this about me. I'm sorry I'm having to take Klonopin because I'm in between an effective cocktail atm.
It will be ok, we may not ever be a neuroscientist but we can still be people that are proud of ourselves and have family that are proud of us too. Have you talked with your kids and asked them how they feel about it? Sometimes I project a lot of shit and imagine that people are thinking the worst. (hugs) one day at a time.