Lots of people care - your depressed and isolated!!! Your illness is keeping you sad and alone.... if you fight it, and keep trying to find meds that HELP - it will let you surround yourself with good people!

But for right now, you have DS - we are here, you can chat and talk - and keep fighting. Your friends crushed is family, and is not here to fight anymore - none of that is what you want... (((((BIG HUG))))

Please hold on - maybe its time to go inpatient? You have been depressed a long time - if you go to the hospital, they will help take care of you, and can adjust meds so much faster, than one script at time with a pdoc! Maybe just a couple days????

Please get help, if your not strong enough to fight - let others show you, and help you....

I'm sorry to hear about your friend. That's hard,

Maybe you should go to the ER. Don't try to do this alone. You did good by reaching out here on DS.

Just tell yourself "suicide is not an option". That always helped me.

I do care about you and want you to get better.

Sweetie.. Please go to emerg if you need to.. You've been struggling for quite a while now.. 24/7 care for a while can really help to turn things around.. The whole focus will be on getting you well again..
Massive hug of comfort for you and a blessing..x

(((Kitty)))~~

I think you've suffered by yourself here long enough. Please go to the ER. Get the help you so desperately need.

I'm a little reluctant to share this because I don't want to upset you but I have to say that this thought process has kept me from suicide in my darkest days on many occasion.

My dad took his own life when he was 49. I was 23. I pondered what if the existence (situation, whatever you want to call it) after suicide is even worse than what we're experiencing? We fantasize about peace and relief but what if there is none? I guess I figured that that cruel joke would probably be a reality for me so I pushed in the direction of getting help rather than taking matters into my own hands.

Don't mess around. Please call for help. We care about you!!

Well, and to add to what Baby Shelby said, even if YOU would be at peace, you would be devastating your family and friends. Think of how your friend's suicide is affecting YOU, and decide if you want to keep that going and make more and more people despondent.

Think of the friends from high school that knew you both. Think of what it would do to THEM!

Plus, depression is a temporary low....you will feel better, sweetie. You really, truly need to get yourself some help right now, or call on someone to get you there. Please.

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. I cant imagine how hard that must be for you. Big hugs for you. Please go to the ER and have someone go with you for the support. They will help you no matter what financial situation you are in. We all care about you here. You made a good decision on reaching out for us to us, but I highly recommend you go to the ER. We want you alive and healthy!!!

That's not true. People care you just don't realize it.

Please don't do this, go to the hospital if you have to! Suicide is one mistake you can never come back from!

:(:(:( I am scaared to go to the ER I dont want to go to the hospital. I kow you guys care and I appreciate that but nobody else does.ok gn maybe tomorrow will be better.

Just wanted to add to the previous recommendations on going to an ER.

You need to be somewhere that you are safe.

There are no "do-overs" when it somes to suicide

Hi Kitty~~

Speaking for myself, I didn't want to go to the hospital either. I pitched a little hissy fit about it. But I did ..... and it was the beginning of finding the light at the end of the tunnel and finding stability that had eluded me for over 20 years. Please go.

You've been in a bad place for quite awhile - I would rather you be scared to go to Hospital - then have courage to kill yourself! Doesn't it look wrong, sound wrong ????

You go afraid, you go scared - because you want to quit suffering and give life - docs, and people a chance to HELP you... Your best thinking has got you here, talking suicide!!!!! ((((BIG HUG))))

its time to get professional help, and stop this suffering - pain is inevitable, suffering is optional... You are a good person, and you've tried - its not getting better, you need help... we care and love you, but we can't write a script, help you start in a better direction, we can only support you - you have to do the Hard stuff - you have to do what you don't want to do...

So many of us have been where you are, and finally got help, and it was HELP!!!!

I did not go to the ER last night but did call a hot line and it did help some. Thanks for your support everyone. I am just in a bad way and going through a tough time right now. Sorry if I scared anyone.

BELIEVE ME THEY DO CARE, I have got Bipolar, I've BPD, I'm constantly suicidal to a point where I'm horribliy use to it, think about this carefully,

I know you're in a tough place and believe me I know your pain, but do not give up please, you have us on here to support you, your friend dying by suicide is a terrible terrile thing, you have to ask yourself she must have had the same thoughts as you are having now and look at her family who did care,

Please please don't do anything, you are WORTH MORE, tell your parents how you are feeling and find your self worth ecause it is there, I didn't believe it but then I found it, it'll be hard to look them i the eye and tell them,if they don't help keep trying, schools college etc you have to try, message me anytime, I feel very strongly about this topic because I leave with it everyday.

I wish you the best :)

thanks guys for your support. I ended up going to my friends funeral today and it was very very hard to do but i did it. I talked to her family and they said she has been struggling with bipolar for about 10 years now. They got her help but oviously it wasnt enough. I felt so bad for them. I told them how I have been feeling lately and said PLEASE get help. I called a women that is in my depression support group and told her what was going on and she asked me if i wanted to meet for coffee and talk. I said yes please, So anyway we met for coffee and talked and cried and came up with a plan. She told me if I get bad and think of suicide to call her or to call a hotline crisis number. She told me not to do anything until monday after I talk to my pdoc. So I promised her I would do that. I am not saying I am not going to think about bad things if it happens it happens. So for the moment I ok not saying 1o minutes from now I wont be. Today was a very veryvery hard day. The last funeral i was to was last year when my mom passed away and that was the worst day. ok thats all for now thanks again guys for your support:)

Just saw your post this moment. I am glad you are getting help and support from your friend My deepest sympathies for your friend's family I feel deeply sorry for them. Yes we at BPDS do care. I include yours truly with that statement. I think offline support groups can be helpful too. Both on and offline can help. I hope you follow up on what she told you to do. ie hotline crisis number if needed.