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feeling sick with anger

malibumark
malibumark

i don't know where to start but today has been an evolution of things - my mood changed


and i tried to adjust with it. i even felt like I was doing pretty good at not just whimpering to myself


but I was proactive and changed my perspective to give myself what I needed to deal with my moods.



Sorry but then the house manager said something that really set me off and i tried to adjust my attittude


but I couldn't- I was a mass of 'one thought' - and it blew my mind. I can't wait to take my meds.


At work I can deal with all the crap people throw at me, I am ready for it - but here at the house - I can't help


but relax and this manager's flippant comment got me. I feel sick with anger. Mad at myself, mad that I have to deal with


this. But I do feel better for talking about it.

malibumark
malibumark
i can understand how pressured a parent might feel when having to deal with everything they have to deal with at work - and then also come home to relax and then to deal with the complexities of family life...it blows the mind!
mlr0853
mlr0853
geezz Mark...give yourself a break! You are human, you will have emotions...and Dang!!! You managed to redirect yourself All Day, Turn Your Mind All Day and not Give Into Negative Energy, or behavior.
Don't know what the 'manager' said that put you off balance, however If He Is Still Standing, Again, you stood taller and kept yourself in check! I hope your insides with heal with some soothing meditation or deep breathing and relaxing...best to you! ml
malibumark
malibumark
thanks so much. i took my meds and i am trying to get some rest now. :) I really appreciate it.
mlr0853
mlr0853
Mark, this is a guy I listen to a lot...so many different mediations...
https://www.youtube.com/user/MichaelSealey/playlists
beckyp
beckyp
Like Miro said- give yourself a break. It's okay and normal to get angry, but you know that. Glad you were able to get some rest.
malibumark
malibumark
thanks becky!!!
MoobbusT
MoobbusT
Its important to have a home as a safe retreat and I hope yours feels safe and secure again asap mark.
malibumark
malibumark
thanks Moobbus. That's something I really struggle with. My room is my inner sanctum and yet I am still here at this 'board and care'. It's a new day, I need to focus on the positive. Thanks again.
MayB
MayB
The same Mark,

I'm sorry this happened and we all need a safe home as our sanctuary....may it be resolved soon!
malibumark
malibumark
thanks May. I think in part I need to accept 'what is', and that things are not perfect. Sometimes I have to deal with complexity and I think I am growing to accept that is part of life. I am really glad I have my room to come back to. It's where I find calm and it's where I can imagine what to do. Thanks so much!!!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you sweetie..... Communal living would be tough for sure and take A LOT of tolerance ... I'm glad you're venting and you've always have such good insight..... xo
malibumark
malibumark
thanks Jan!!
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