Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I sat in my apt alone for 5 days, no place to go, no one to see. And it really got to me. Now I feel angry and sad, suicidal earlier today, I don't think it's my meds, I think it's how bad my life is. I see the doc on friday but I know she can't give me what I need, all she can give me is drugs.
I hate my life so badly that suicide is looking good. Really good.
I already know what y'all will say - I've read it enough times on this board. How suicide is never the answer etc etc. But I know that sometimes it is the answer. Sorry to those who don't like to hear that. But it is.
If I had known how hellish this last year was gonna be, I'd have killed myself a year ago. I hate that I actually had to live through this last year. And ya know what? I feel the same way about the year before. I don't wanna live through another year, another month, another day of the hell that is my life. I really can't take it anymore.
I have what I need to end it, everything but the guts. All I need is the guts.
I hate my life so badly that suicide is looking good. Really good.
I already know what y'all will say - I've read it enough times on this board. How suicide is never the answer etc etc. But I know that sometimes it is the answer. Sorry to those who don't like to hear that. But it is.
If I had known how hellish this last year was gonna be, I'd have killed myself a year ago. I hate that I actually had to live through this last year. And ya know what? I feel the same way about the year before. I don't wanna live through another year, another month, another day of the hell that is my life. I really can't take it anymore.
I have what I need to end it, everything but the guts. All I need is the guts.
please go to the er.
What can you do to make yourself feel better, I know you are not feeling like there is a thing in this world......but can ya think of ANYthing that will make you feel better and ending your life isn't a good enough answer. Even if it is as simple as drinking a cup of your favorite tea, can you think of something just for now that will ease this up for you???
MojoPaw - I've been in-patient, and when I came out my life still sucked.
Tats69 - I'll drink some hot chocolate just because you were kind to try to help
If only I could have what I need I could live happily, with out it life is misery.
I draw. I write. I beat the s*** out of my pillows at times. I cry. I take photographs of sunsets, flowers, and animals.
I play with my dog when I visit my parents. She's sensitive and understanding. I love her to death.
I play with my roommate's cat. She's playful and friggin hilarious. I love her to death as well.
Little things... they matter. And just think, you wouldn't be around to enjoy them if you weren't here.
Giving someone a smile on the street, or holding doors open for others. Or buying a homeless guy a meal? Those are creating moments of joy and purpose in someone elses life. And thus yours as well.
What do you need that you are talking about that will make you happy....you say if only you had what you need, what is it that you need??