Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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feeling blue ... again

malibumark
malibumark
I feel like I've got this pattern to my moods. Well I am bipolar and I go up and I go down.

But I feel like i am supposed to fetter out some truth to things. I think what I said is my truth. I go up and down and that's the truth of it.

If I look for more there isn't much there. I feel like I have been spinning to find a consolatory wisdom.

Looking for that wisdom on a day when I didn't have that much going on has made my moods go crazy.

I am glad I found this movie to watch on the tv, it's a great distraction.

I don't want to feel bad for not having the answer to my dilemma.

I don't know if any of this makes sense - does anyone else think like this?
deleted_user
deleted_user
nahhh....i'm resigned to chaos.

not believing in anyone or anything helps. i have no expectations.

sorry you're struggling my friend. wish i had the answers that would lift you up.
malibumark
malibumark
Mojo

I must admit that I've been moody lately - and instead of being able to find "an answer" I have found that I have felt just worse. I have started to realize
that my moods swings have made me feel like I should find a wisdom to manage them - but it is just as it is. I have mood swings, and I am still a valuable person.

Having a tangible way of keeping myself distracted - like watching movies is important. So that's what I am doing. Not having 'an answer' is not important. Keeping in mind that I still have value and that I can do little things to keep distracted is good.

Thanks Man. YOU are AWESOME!
SwordDancer
SwordDancer
Hmmmm, when I am feverishly searching for an "answer" to something and it is causing my anxiety to go up and down is a good indicator my obsessive thinking is triggered (OCD). Sometimes distraction is good for awhile but I always go back to the same thoughts eventually.

May or may not be your symptoms but it sounds familiar to me. If it gets too bad, may want to call the doc.
malibumark
malibumark
thanks Sword Dancer. Yeah that sounds about right too. The slightest thing too can put me off. I didn't like the way I answered Mojo (i kind of repeated myself) and that made my mood spike - or I should say mood and anxiety. It's weird all that stuff. I will think about talking to my Doctor but I so don't want more medication. Keeping occupied and coping mechanisms - it's enough for now. I feel lucky to know you guys.

peace,

Mark
DeeTOOL13
DeeTOOL13
Sometime keeping busy is the best thing for mew, actually most times.

I wish you the best
HUGS
dee
deleted_user
deleted_user
The answer is, "All normal people are crazy."

Enjoy your movie
GinaWonders
GinaWonders
I look for wisdom and reflection in my melancholy..... in deep depression, of course that makes me worse... but I see growth when I try and make sense of the pain, and make better choices...

I totally understand what you saying....
malibumark
malibumark
thanks everyone! I am about to start watching the movies : )
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