Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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EXTREMELY MANIC/OUT OF CONTROL.

frusciante
frusciante
I need to talk myself down right now, i keep trying deep breathing/clearing mind. It's not working. I'm exhausted, but CANNOT sleep without my mind on full blast. This has been for w3 days. Starving, but won't it. Its too time consuming. I'm snapping on everyone, seriously agitated. I can feel its only a matter of time befotre the delusions begin.
I'm scared, I have not felt this out of control in a few years. The idea of taking every plate and glass out of the cabinets and smashing them on the floor is very appealing me right now. The thought of breaking every window in tthis house. I feel so CLOSEEEEDDDD INNNN!!!!!! I know this is not rational, and this won't solve any problems, but the impulse isI there none the less. Shaking like a leaf from excitement. 2 cups of coffee on top of 200 mg Provigil is NOT helping. Neurontin, NOT HELPING. No current psych dr or whatever as of now. On a waiting list. Waitng for a call back from my primary. I'd really hate to spend 7 hours in an ER just to talk to a "crisis" team that won;t do SHIT. How can I possibly clear my mind???? Games that require logic/thinking/ w/e are noyt even helping in the slightest. too impatient. I feel like im going off a cliff into oblivion. I have no anxitey meds currrently. Just Neurontin, Prozac. This sucks!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Valium or weed may taake the manic down to tolerable - I am manic 100% of the time just depends on the moment how bad it truly is
surferchica
surferchica
First I love RHCP, especially when John Frusciante was with them.

I have gone through controlled breakage of crockery---to release energy. It helped me. Just decide what you want to break...break thinks that you don't love much.

You need to stop the Provigil and Coffee. They only makes things worse!! I say this as a person w/narcolepsy and bipolar. Maybe when you are stable you can resume provigil...cautiously.

Try cleaning.

It can be mindless...just clean.

and get to the ER if you think you are going to do something really regrettable.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I agree with Suferchica- stop the Provigil and coffee. My sleep doctor said that Nuvigil and Provigil are not stims so there is no way they can make you manic. BS I told him, when I took the Nuvigil I was manic as hell for 3 straight days. More manic than I had been in years.

I know what you mean about wanting to break everything. It's like something has to give and maybe breaking the dishes or whatever would help you release. But it's only a short fix. I wish I had something to say that would help.

Hope you slow down soon and hopefully your regular doc can prescribe something to get you through these episodes.

Best of luck and hugs
kimmers
sigmund2
sigmund2
I run when i feel manic. It is much better to run beforehand and regularly bc once mania happens, of course things get tricky. I knew of a woman who flat out refused meds, got manic abd got violent but she started training for a marathon and got counseling and her manic episodes were rare after that. Can you get to a track? Can you have someone come with you? Dancing is also helpful. Sometimes, when manic, i draw distruction... You know .... Shards of broken glass or people screaming. Wonder if lots of artists were not manic when the drew. I know it helped van gogh. Ever see edvard munch's painting called , "the Scream?"
mugwort
mugwort
I too think it could be helpful if you quit the coffee or at least non caffienated. When I get manic I like to break things too. What I do is go to my trashcan and see if there's anything there. I know that withdrawal from Valium or any benzo for matter can be rough. Ever read or see the movie "I'm dancing as fast as I can." Prbblem with weed its illegal in most states. OTOH if you've living in the US you could live in state where its legal. I can see why you don't like ERs. Hope your primary can satisfy your needs right now.
sigmund2
sigmund2
Btw i am not saying what the lady in my post did is a good idea. I know Meds are an important part of treatment, its just that running can seriously help.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Was not suggesting large amounts of valium just a 2 mg pil or two to knock the manic down to something OP can work with
deleted_user
deleted_user
I hope that you get to feeling better. I don't have any good advice at the moment.
frusciante
frusciante
thanks everyone, i'm getting in w/ my primary at 1145. she didn't even want me to wait that long, but she understood i didn't want to waste time in the ER. it's such a stigma with this illness. I'm so sick of being clumped into a group because of a label a dr like 15 years ago decided to give me. bleh.

unfortunately there's only so much i can do as far as benzos considering im a recovering drug addict.although ativan has helped a lot with no dependancy, lately, it's been making symptoms worse...the schizo affective side anyway.
just tired and frustrated.
my kids are worried, and that hurts.
i hate that they see me like this...i won't even be able to bring my son to school today i am such a mess. he understands, but's it's still not fair to him.

all i can hope for is something to at least put the thoughts on pause for a while, and another mood stabilizer.

thanks again, i will keep updating
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am SO glad you reached out to us for help and that you are getting in with your primary. Good.

Hope you check in again here after your appointment and let us know how it went, okay?
deleted_user
deleted_user
wow im on similar meds to you....hang in there there are ways to relax but mania is relentless. Just do the best you can xo
deleted_user
deleted_user
I was extremely manic in July this year and broke around 20 windows ,many dishes some chairs and cut a main artery in my hand and was bleeding out. I sure do wish I had gone and checked into the hospital sooner,it would have been worth the wait.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
If you've been up for 3 days and are getting worse frusc you probably need medical intervention..
Do you have a doctor to go to??
I often take a little extra AP when I feel I need it (not that I would recommend it) but it helps me
I would get to a clinic or emerg if I were you.. Sorry you're going through such a rough time sweetie
Great big hug of comfort for you..xo
deleted_user
deleted_user
What are your current medications? Check with your Psychiatrist to see if anything your on can be combined or substituted with 250 mg of Depakote in the morning and 500 mg in the evening as well as 2 1/2 mg of Zaprexa twice daily which will help with the depression. The Depakote is an anti seizure that will slow down the racing thoughts and bring you back down to earth so to speak.
EpisodeAgain
EpisodeAgain
Coffee is definitely a no when you are manic!
Try to get some sleep. It sounds morbid and fucked up, but think of all the negative things in your past and then try to resolve them in your head.
It works when I want to sleep because it'S SO exhausting!

Be safe!
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