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emotional high tide

malibumark
malibumark

I don't really know what to do with myself at times,


I feel like I try and self anaylze and sort through issues, rationalize and seek approval or connection


with 'authority' - but this is just who I am.


I am a guy who has high flying emotions and some more.


I know we all 'evolve' through life..no matter if we are diagnosable or not


I feel upset and ashamed about myself. 


You would think that living in a household with others who have similar diagnosis might be a comfort


but it kind of isn't. I need someone steady to calm me.


I need to find a life that is steady to hold me, couch me


so that I might find it easier or automatic to take responsibility for myself.


I think I just need to have faith that this too shall pass. It's just a day - how I wish it were more significant in a way than that.


These emotional high tides happen and I am feeling silly.

rubyblue
rubyblue
I'm sorry you feel upset and ashamed about yourself mark, idk your story, but you always come across to me like an intelligent, thoughtful and insightful man. And with a sense of humour.

I hope tomorrow is a better day. And you find your tether. I can only speak for myself, but I find myself untethered a lot lately, and think some of it has to related to this illness. Shifting sands, and that is hard to hold our own. But we can still stand tall, heads held high.

Best wishes x
malibumark
malibumark
thanks ruby. really beautifully said and very appreciated!
arfie
arfie
I can barely imagine surviving life in a house full of folks with the same problems as me. Took me a long time to believe in support groups of people with the same problems as mine. Live with them? Trigger City!!! My support groups still strike my senses as a carnival mirror house. I still squirm at seeing myself in somebody else's dysfunctional behavior. Proof that similarities cause more problems than differences? Whatever the weird of ^it^, leave me a bit of denial margin, please. Yes, it's good to stretch my self-awareness comfort zone, but still. . . It's remains hard more often than it is easy.

Adding my voice to Ruby's in hoping tomorrow is a better day.
MoobbusT
MoobbusT
Its important to work through how you feel and what your needs are Mark. Good, steady friends aren't always that easy to come by... but I hope one knocks at your door today. Sometimes that old method of finding someone you share a strong interest with is a good one... like a couple of golf tragics getting together to talk about birdies, eagles and albatrosses... I mean no wonder golfers lose their balls... they are too busy watching wildlife :-)
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you sweetie.... I'm sorry that you've been struggling.... I also agree that living with several people would take a lot of patience
I hope that today is a little better Marky.....xo
malibumark
malibumark
things are good. It's that time of year... when the world falls in love! :) Merry Christmas :)
sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13
Good to see you, Mark. I love your writings.

Sometimes there is just nothing that will comfort us, and it's one of the most distressing feelings in the world. It's true that today is just a day, but that doesn't make it pass any faster. I hope something shifts for you today so you can feel a bit better... but if not, tomorrow is a new day. many (((hugs)))
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