No idea why it is why get bi-polar brain kinks.....I however do not like them and it becomes quite irksome after awhile....I want to go back to work to my well paying job but unless this nonsense ceases I am in a stuck mode....And these bi-polar kinks appear in many forms....paranoia, fears, depression, hyperness, grandiosities, and whatever the hell else....The joy of it all!!!!!

Thanks deepthinker I am just going over and over in my head what i might have done or said to people throughout the day. Asking myself questions - was she being off with me or is it in my head - thinking about going to prison for some time out. My head really does come up with some crap. One minute I am fine the next everyone bloody hates me. All I want to know is why i think this way.

I understand how you feel because I've been the same way for years, ups and downs, until recently. It's annoying.

What I've been learning in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and learned in Dialectical BT is that you focus on changing your thoughts (instead of asking yourself why...).

So, what I do now that has helped A LOT, besides medication is that I start telling myself: "Everything is fine, these thoughts are just the symptoms and they'll go away tomorrow or anytime soon. It's alright.That's ok. Everything was fine at work, nothing bad happened."

Hope it helps you. :)

Thank you everyone for your comments - I have my first appointment with a pdoc next week - fingers crossed I will get somewhere