Last night, I became hypomanic. Now, I haven't been manic or depressed in years, since taking medication every day since ECT... At first I thought it was because I was talking about stuff that interested me, but then I realized I'd just drunk two cups of black as black coffee, which I haven't had in over a year. It was nice while it lasted, but that's neutral Nick's opinion. The truth is, it's amazing to have on me. Where other people have alcohol to loosen them up and have a good time, I can just drink two cups of strong coffee, and because immensely positive, social, energetic, and intelligent. If I take advantage of it, there might be problems, but I don't see any harm in using it for parties or school assignments. I already get A's in school... With this, I'll Rock my PhD.

Before it got too late, I took my meds, it knocked me out, and now I feel fine. I awoke earlier than I normally do, but I'm completely neutral.

That's a good test, actually... Don't drink coffee until you want to sleep in, again.

Just know that I couldn't do this if I didn't find working treatment. If I'd tried without treatment, which I have, it would just have an elastic band effect and through me into a depression afterwards. All I'm saying is, I found an extraordinary gift, in bipolar.