Hi TXMade. It does suck when things are tough and unforgiving. I can only suggest that you find hope in what the future might hold for you. It's so easy especially when you are down to see only bad things, but take solace and realize that there just might be something good waiting for you to happen upon and discover. The possibility does exist so look for it.

We are currently gaining 7 minutes of daylight every day. I am a solar powered mama and consider that worthy of celebration. Celebrating the little things helps me allot.

hope 2012 gets better for you.

I felt the same way! And nothing looked positive for me last night. But I do feel better today. Damn I hate bp...

i love gwendoly's reply. yay!!!
i'm sorry you feel out of control right now. if you are putting honest effort into your recovery, taking your meds, and working with your pdoc/tdoc, i firmly believe things will slowly get better. the hard work does pay off. :)

i hope you feel better soon.

TexasMade I so feel for you, I too have been there many many times and I know its impossible to see any light out there but what I have learned is that these feelings too will pass.

Make sure you are taking your medication and make an appointment if necessary to see your doctor, but above all keep in mind that this too will pass.

Take care.

Hey! I understand about the lonely feelings and not being able to enjoy the holidays. I have been depressed since before Christmas Not sure when I will be able to adjust to the feelings about being out of control either.
I am playing the I am OK roll, hubby thinks that all is right.
He just doesn't have the time or anything to help me.
I wish you luck in that department.
ttfn AnnieEm

Hey TxMade.
I agree with Freethinkr70, Find hope in the future. Remember this is only temporary. We don't feel down forever. Look for a bright sunshiney days ahead. Take care, love.