I wonder the same thing though I have my good days through mostly challenging days. I don't expect myself to gt "better" anymore or totally healed. I just expect to maybe get better at symptom management and acting on life rather than reacting to life and my more screwed up impulses that come up somewhere from bipolar and somewhere from old woulds and trauma.

I can't promise you will, but you at least realize what you are doing. You can change the things you do and the types of people you get involved with. I too have gone through the impulsive relationship thing and have ran through quite a few of them.

Now, I have a fiance whom I know isn't perfect and love just the same. Realizing that relationships go through cycles is important. You won't always have that wonderful feeling you had at the beginning.

I feel yay in wanting to be stress free and sleeping w/o sleeping pills. I hate having to medicate jus to sleep but got to or else my illness will be much worse. Its hard to accept sometimes we are mentally ill i know. I still have days where i hate that i have this and hate life sometimes but i force myself to keeping going. I ask the same question am i going to get better? and im still hoping one day i will. I know i will always have this illness and jus have to deal with it best i can and take one day at a time.

I think it may be a matter of living the best you can, coping best you're capable of and adjusting to your condition. It could be worse. There could be no meds for treatment. Its I figure living, surviving and hopefully thriving each day as best we can. Hope that helps