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are happening to me right now.
What
Do
I do. ?
I read (yesterday actually) that it sometimes is a symptom of cluster panic attacks (positive feedback loop) and I had like 5 panic attacks yesterday. And didn't sleep last night. And haven't been.
I feel like I REALLY need a Xanax or something but I'm worried a benzodiazepine would make the perceptional fuckery/non-linear thinking a lot worse.
(I'm very foggy but uh... first one is like, your 'self' feels unreal, or incohesive, like uh, oh hell I don't know. Some of you should know. Most of you probably do actually. It's losing touch with reality because of internal dissociation, derealization is the same thing but with like... whatever is going on around you. "colorlessness", perceptional time warping, all that.)
Nothing is making sense. ??????? This shit feels so unnatural but I'm just sitting here in my bedroom. Like. Nothing weird about that at all. But this moment isn't making sense? It feels displaced.
I'm having thoughts about death/killing/mutilation. I am NOT A DANGER to myself or anyone right now. I think it's a coping technique, to run through hypothesees and visuals and the like, without serious contemplation while I'm dissociation/experiencing DP/DR.
Here's what I did.
I took a melatonin chew (they're weak, just Nature Made gummies I think) and a Vistaril (hydroxyzine). Is there anything else I should/could be doing?
Please if you comment just briefly mention that I'm a whole person and I'm making sense right now, and there's not anyone else coming out in my personality. I'm pretty sure, but reinforcement can be helpful. Thanks.
What
Do
I do. ?
I read (yesterday actually) that it sometimes is a symptom of cluster panic attacks (positive feedback loop) and I had like 5 panic attacks yesterday. And didn't sleep last night. And haven't been.
I feel like I REALLY need a Xanax or something but I'm worried a benzodiazepine would make the perceptional fuckery/non-linear thinking a lot worse.
(I'm very foggy but uh... first one is like, your 'self' feels unreal, or incohesive, like uh, oh hell I don't know. Some of you should know. Most of you probably do actually. It's losing touch with reality because of internal dissociation, derealization is the same thing but with like... whatever is going on around you. "colorlessness", perceptional time warping, all that.)
Nothing is making sense. ??????? This shit feels so unnatural but I'm just sitting here in my bedroom. Like. Nothing weird about that at all. But this moment isn't making sense? It feels displaced.
I'm having thoughts about death/killing/mutilation. I am NOT A DANGER to myself or anyone right now. I think it's a coping technique, to run through hypothesees and visuals and the like, without serious contemplation while I'm dissociation/experiencing DP/DR.
Here's what I did.
I took a melatonin chew (they're weak, just Nature Made gummies I think) and a Vistaril (hydroxyzine). Is there anything else I should/could be doing?
Please if you comment just briefly mention that I'm a whole person and I'm making sense right now, and there's not anyone else coming out in my personality. I'm pretty sure, but reinforcement can be helpful. Thanks.
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
I recently had a derealitization episode - it lasted about an hour. I couldn't place myself anywhere and didn't believe I was alive.
Awhile back, I had wicked SI and was on the computer and all of the sudden I thought I had succeeded and died and this was all hell - or a dream - or whatever happens to you after you die. Does this sound familiar?
I couldn't shake the feeling -just looking around was painful because I thought "If this is all made-up and not real, then why am I creating such a hell for myself?" I was panic-stricken and crying and it was my dog that helped bring me back - she came and sat at my feet and when I pet her, she felt "real" - like she was proving to me that life is real, this reality is mine, I am a real, whole, living person. I'm downplaying the severity of the episode, but I think I had an experience like you are having. (Or had)
Don't lose it - I kept telling myself - but then what did I have to keep together? My dog... wow. I look back on it now and can't recreate the feeling or sensation. It was daunting and scary.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way - I think taking a vistaril was a good idea - and the melatonin too. I hope you feel better - more like yourself - soon! Let me know if this makes sense.