Amen, Twosides x

stuck, I think you were asking about your boyfriend rather than you..I did see your question on the other board and I don't have a reply to that, sorry.

he may be having delusions as well but I suspect technically although it's a false beleif re the affair, it's not odd or improbable belief. Many people are convinced their partners are having affairs on the basis of no or imagined evidence and so I don't think they would be regarded as delusional.

re the acid trip - I think those do include delusions.

schizophrenia and bipolar doesn't have a monopoly on delusions - there are other causes as well.

I remember while in my delusional state I kept saying over and over again this is not happening to me. I wanted to believe in something other then what was consuming me. But the more I would try to fight the more it over took me. There is just no fighting delusion. My whole mind was occupied by this thought that grew like a small seed into a bean stalk. the more and more time that went by the more massive it got. I was convinced at one point that I was going to have to spend them rest of my life in a mental facility so I wouldnt hurt anyone or myself. I was convinced I was cursed by something greater in the universe and that I was created and made to be an example. I was also convinced I was in purgatory. Not a good thing. I was convinced I wasnt even human anymore. Scary shit

trying to convince myself otherwise was before my delusional state grew beyond measure. After that it was like tryin gto live in two different worlds. One world inside my head, and acting a part for the living. Cause everyone to me seemed dead because I was convinced I was dead. I know.. i'm saying too much so i'll shut up. Now i'm embarassed

i feel you twosides.

it really does suck and when in it, we are living two different worlds and the really sad part is, sometimes we dont even stop to tell the others what we are living or if we do, sometimes we get laughed off. like its a fucking joke or something and we really believe the things in our head. they are happening to us, they are real.

thank you... I just get really wierd about when I share with the board. Cause I know the things that have went on in my head and I try to run away from it but it always finds me again. I'm ok though... love you

two, i am finally loosening up about talking about it. i think we are in good company round here. love you too!

Its just so hard... It defys everything you have ever been taught in life. Religion wont fix it or nothing. Prayer doesnt help it when its out of control. I still find myself asking if I will be forgiven by god. Even though I know I couldnt control it, it still gets me everytime

I've dealt with psychosis before, it sucks. I'm in a whole new territory with this delusions stuff though. It is delusions, I found some technical stuff on it yesterday but I like Wikipedia's more concise description in layman's terms.

"Morbid jealousy (also known as delusional jealousy, or Othello syndrome) is a psychiatric disorder in which a person holds a delusional belief that their spouse or sexual partner is being unfaithful.

An affected person typically makes repeated accusations of infidelity based on insignificant or minimal evidence, often citing seemingly normal or everyday events or material to back up their claim.

Unlike other delusional disorders, delusional jealousy has a strong association with violence and in some cases stalking behavior.

It can be found in the context of schizophrenia and delusional disorder, such as bipolar disorder, but is also associated with alcoholism and sexual dysfunction and has been reported after neurological illness."

So I know what it is that's going on but really nothing more than that. I was hoping that maybe some folks in here might have the knowledge or research skills to help me answer some of my questions about this. This is one of those things that I really don't know anything about other than the definition for this particular delusion.

i also get that way stuckathome. I hate it too. It drives me crazy... literally

As one that has been struck with delusional thoughts, I can say that I never experienced a time in which I thought my thoughts were delusional until I started getting stabilized on medication. Ditto on psychotic episodes - if you asked me I was perfectly sane, just no one would believe me!