Thank you for reading this post to start off with. I am a sophomore at a state college and am struggling. This is my second year in college and still battling bipolar disorder. I just got over a manic episode a couple weeks ago which completely ruined the start of the year for me. I'm behind in schoolwork, can't seem to get caught up. If I mess up this semester(which I feel another episode coming on), I will owe a lot of money, be in bad standing with the university, and feel like a failure. I just don't know what to do and was wondering if others have had this struggle as well, and if you guys have any good advice. I'm about ready to say fuck it and just get a job. At least then I could pay off all my bills, hopefully get stabilized, and be happier and healthier overall. I'm just so frustrated and confused on what to do. I love school and want to pursue as far as I can, but at this point in my life I find it impossible. The disorder won in this case :P Thanks.