First this morning I wake up in a great mood, ready to take on the world. Then I realize that I don't have a bus pass for this month and had to get a ride to my gyn appt. I've tried calling all over today about my bus pass but no one has called me back. How am I supposed to live my life if I can't leave my house? Then my landlord was snappy with me about today being the first and rent is due. Well, I haven't gotten my public assistance yet and I don't know when this week, if this week it will be here. I spoke with my housing worker and he said even though I haven't gotten my money yet, shell still get her rent. But you never know with these dickholes downtown. And I found out I don't get my foodstamps until tomorrow, which is fine but I had planned on taking the bus, with my bus pass (grrrrr) and getting some food for my apt because I have close to nothing here. My whole day has just been fucked up.

On top of all this shit, my boyfriend may be losing his job due to the share holder dieing. I am just not built for all of this stress. OH and my landlord still won't call my housing rep back about signing a lease. I'm just Fucking sick of being sick. I wish I could just do this all on my own. Work, go to school. Be. Productive member of this world. But I'm not. I'm just sad, bipolar. Welfare case. Gaaaahhhhh!