Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
so here is the deal work is slowly grinding on my last reserves of strength i have been sleeping way to much and today i held a razor to my hand and thought about carving the back of my hand open bottle of pills hidden under my bed in a drawer i know dumb thing to do right but i have them there anyway fucking paxal left over from a few months back that an incompetent doctor gave to me all i can think about the last few days is taking 30 of the fuckers and waiting to see what happens i know this isn't a very coherent post but i cant seem to structure my thoughts at all right now had something happen yesterday to after it happened i talked to my mom because i wasn't aware i had done anything but apparently i had written down several things that made no sense and was laughing like a nutter for a half hour it would probably be better to post this in the journal but i want to try to get a grip on myself and you guys always help to do that help me understand this cause i don't know what the fuck is going on
justletmebe
Please dont do anything to hurt yourself. Please get to a pdoc as soon as possible, I hope you stabilize soon ((hug))
deleted_user
please do not do this, talk to your mother about this, I know you spoke with her but maybe maybe she can help you get some more professional help. I do know how you feel but a good family is always there.
Kristin-Herman
I'm sorry you're having a hard time right now. I am too. The last couple weeks my mind can't let go of the same ideas you're having. But in the end, I know it's not worth it. Dealing w BPD we both know the lows are Reallly low, and the happy highs are Really high. So try to remember that no matter how hurt you are, or hopeless it seems right now, it can get better. I am trying to use positive self talk to get me through today. All you can do sometimes is go a day at a time, a moment at a time. If you need to talk I'm here. Drs wrongly diagnosed and medicated me for this issue and a few others. Finding a good doc willing to truely listen is difficult. I'm on Seroquel now, and it's helpful mostly. I'm still trying to learn the coping skills, and I lose control sometimes, I feel like the Hulk coming outta my skin and I get enraged or emotional. I'm telling you my story so you know you're not alone. I don't have family that are understanding, but you do. Talk to your mom when you're feeling low, or to people on here like me :) good luck.
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