I know very little about cutting but please continue to get outside help. You wnat the pain to go away but it doesn't seem like that is going to make it happen. Please keep trying to ghet help. Bless you

I am giving up on the whole outside help thing. I was turned down 2 too many times to even trust them.

Please don't slice yourself again. Wait for the people to question you. Then, be totally and brutally honest. Just don't hurt yourself. You're too special. Just wait. Take one minute at a time. Please don't slice yourself any more. You can get through this. You're strong.

I think there's a self-harm site on DS...check it out.

wear a rubber band on your wrist and snap it hard as many times as you need. It will give you pain without injury. It's less to feel guilty over. In the mean time, keep looking for help. Get a therapist if you don't have one or look for an emergency mental health center in your area.

I forgot about the self harm community. DUH I am in that one. Thanks for reminding me

Good luck.

hi akira , im a cutter too , havent cutt for about three weeks , preety good huh. well ive been hospitaliized several times for this, and called help lines but they dont help me to much either. cutting is my out of my brain its my release , i try to find any other release i can when im having an attack , i write fast and furious in a journal about everything that im mad about , i eat ice cream or drink soda imeadiatly, i jump up and run as fast as i can out the door and down the street i scream in my pillow or drive and scream as high as i can pray to god for calmness or let my self cry thats hard to do .its ok i have to sometimes but its ok just keep trying to find ways out

I am just getting sick and tired of calling and asking for help when all they keep doing is turning me down. How I see it is that if something else was to happen to me then it would be thier fault for turning me down in my time of need. I'm done calling and asking

I know nothing about cutting. I am an eater which is no where near as dangerous. I understand your feeling about the whole outside. I tried to commit suicide in April and inside the hospital was a joke. However, the mandatory 4 weeks of group everyday did help because I became close with a few people and we now have our own support. Don't give up!! It's easier said then done I know.

Why are they turning you down? reason?

I myself was a cutter and have not let into the urge for two years now. The urge doesn't always go away but you learn healthier ways to cope. My best advice is to find someone who you can trust and ask them if you can call them if you are feeling the urge. Sometimes if you just go out for coffee and a good chat about whats going on the urge will pass. Have faith in yourself!

weve been trying to worki this out lindel.

seems she has a v crap counsellor. but is gettin a therapist soon.

im trying to get her to call 911.

help me help her guys.

I am a selfhalmer to. I know were you are comming from. when i reaky need help and start self harlming, they just don't want to know. try and keep calm and try breathing deep and slow it may help a little, keep trying for outside help if they know you are very ill they will help (but only if you say you are going to kill yourself) I know i should not say that but it s true and that is the only way i got help.
Take care
Loving hugs
Bett
I will be thinking of you but please DO NOT DO what i said you are to tell perfesional people.

I was a cutter too. I know how it goes. Physical pain to cover the emotional. Emotional pain is much worse than physical. The problem with cutting is that your emotional pain will come back and overwhelm the physical as your wound gets better. When you cut yourself your body produces natural pain killers. Too bad it won't do that for emotional pain. I take it you don't have a Psychitrist? When I got help last year durring the worst episode of my life. I got it by someone finding me in my house trying to kill myself. Ultimately I tried to drink myself to death. 8 days, no food, no water, just Vodka. When I got to the ER, the Doctor said I was about 8 hours away from dying from dehydration. When I was found the police took me to the ER. After the ER they took me to the county mental ward. The mental ward would only release me if I agreed to go to a mental hospital. I spent 4 days there, then it was up to my doctor. Now after 3 different Psychiatrist's I found one that actually tries to help me. I am 33 and finally enjoy my life. I have been sober for almost a year now. Taking my meds, have a great job, and a wonderful 9 year old daughter. I almost ruined my relationship with my daughter. Well, I actually did ruin it for about a year. Anyway, help is out there. Sometimes however you may have to go to extremes to get it. I wish I had a better answer, but you are not getting any help. If you really, really need help. Call the police and tell them you are going to kill yourself. They have to come get you and take you to a hospital. It's the law. Good luck. Please don't stop trying to get help. If you do, you may end up doing something really, really stupid. Suicide is stupid, so is cutting. Cutting really doesn't help, and it becomes a habbit after a while. Best wishes.

Dow