Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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JennS 04/14/2015

I'm feeling more like my regular self now. It's good but a walk on eggshells sort of feeling. I don't want to relapse. I'm going to do everything I can to keep from falling into depression. It is bizarre to look at it from this side. It is frustrating to realize that this happens due to a chemical imbalance. It seems to simple but it's very difficult.
I'm going to try to be more positive. I'm, also going to try to be less angry.
I have learned that some things aren't going to change. I will always have a dark personality. I think it has been all along on some level. The people I'm angry with, the caused me the most damage, will never apologize for what they did. Most likely I will see them again anyway. I don't care what they think of me because I don't value their opinions or them as people. There are just some questions that will never be answered.

DoorMAwss 04/14/2015

HUGS, JennS - sometimes the best thing we can Do for ourselves, is to forgive and Accept ourselves and then try to be "our best", even if that doesn't measure up to 'someone else's' expectations. (what do they know?)

Keep Thinking Positive :)

tommymott 04/14/2015

It's good to hear about your progress. I've found it useful to hold a grudge against people, even if they're deceased. Not that there's much else to be done about it.

spacepony 04/14/2015

Jenn, I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. I certainly know the eggshell feeling :/ two things come to mind...relaxation/mindfulness (though some despise the word, and avoid dismay over bad days or behaviors. I think us chronically ill are can be hypervigilant over daily mood fluctuations.

There. Off the soapbox. Boy, coming to terms with interpersonal injustices ain't easy. You're doing good. Warm hugs x

irishwriter 04/14/2015

a lot of thought processes worked out - good for you. enjoy the fruits of your labour. I hope you continue to feel better. nobody pays you rent to be in your head so keep telling them all to leave. hugs to you!

dobiedots 04/14/2015

I like your thinking Jenn. I feel the same way and looking at it that way really works!!

spacekat 04/15/2015

Way to reframe your mood! It does seem simple that it's all a bunch of chemical reactions but boy are they powerful! I'm glad you've found acceptance for some of the things in your life. You're headed in the right direction! HUGS!

MMP1 04/15/2015

Doesn't it feel good to feel more like your regular self. Enjoy the moment. Fearing relapse is oh so normal - I'm in that same spot myself.

Forgiving others is hard, sometimes almost impossible. But holding onto resentment only hurts yourself in the long run. And you're right, some questions will never be answered - it's hard to accept that.

JennS 04/15/2015

thank you everyone

SunCloudJD 04/15/2015

Big hug for you Jenn... Therapy can help you deal with this anger sweetie... They don't deserves such a relevant place in your mind...x

freenowfinally 04/15/2015

I'm so with you Jenn. I too have a dark side. Mine however stays that way. I'm so glad you can get out of it and shake it off. That would be awesome for me. Forgiveness is the hardest thing for me.

Keep up the great work ((((HUGS))))

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