i stopped keeping track of moodswings i did not even know that i was depressed it is usually very mild just sleeping more appitite low and not being very productive with crafts

i was just wandering around thinking what is wrong with me why do i feel so miserable

i had a birthday and called the np the same day she sang happy birthday to me so i reliezed that it was that day

talked about increase in zyprexa but that is out of the question i am on max and was once taking twice the usual amount and it did nothing more

so here i am feeling better doing loads of crafts and thinking more positive about the future beggings of hypomania and now i know that i have to be more viligent with keeping aware of cycles the days changed and i was not aware

the most important thing for me is to stay aware once i completely forgot i was bipolar did not see a doctor and then forced into the hospital for 6 months with no meds

i finally came out of it and began meds and was released in a couple of days that showed me that i have to conciously be aware of what i am feeling there is a name for it since then it has been a struggle but there are signs weather the moon and its phases nature in general can govern what state i am in helps any way if i cannot see the beauty of nature then i know to call the doc things better today feeling up and eager tio start craftin g so working with my cricut making cards painting glass balls etc better times ahead