I seem to be a bottomless pit of anguish tonight while trying
to go to sleep.
I want to feed my face - or drink alcohol and yet I know that's not an effective answer.
I have responsibilities in the morning.
I seem to be able to push myself to do what I need to do - just hunker down and do it...
but when I am on my own - and get in touch with personal satisfaction - then the unknowing,
and the endlessness return.
This helps just giving it structure..and it is a hint what might be good for me to do about this.
So I went to the ER last night, and I really wish I had not gone. They didn’t even do anything for me and give me a CAT scan. They thought I couldn’t breathe and wanted to make sure I was not the throwing a blood clot are having a stroke or whatever. So I sat there for hours and hours even after I told them what my problem was and that I needed help. The only thing that they did do for me...
my something is this:i bought a bed frame for a bigger bed for my new room. I also bought the bedspread and sheets. I still need to buy a mattress but I don’t have money to buy everything at once. I’m in no particular rush. I’m happy to buy things as I can afford them. It’s kinda nice. Your turn !!