I'm not okay. I'm doing okay because I'm not letting this drag me down, but we know this is not a fair or honest way to live or make a living. 

Truth is, since November 18, 2018, my life hasn't gotten any better, and it has to do with the mishandling and negligence of my marriage and divorce case with adultery involved, a history of spousal neglect (finically speaking), mental health abuse, and by trusted state-barred attorneys.

And the fact that my husband refused to help file jointly together or help to alleviate some financial burden immediately after finding out about his extramarital affair made it harder for me to cope with the reality of physically remaining without direct help from him and filing alone while coping with the losses and grievance.

However, I didn't let that stop me from doing the right thing. Sadly, to this day I am married to this guy, and he's been withholding all marital privileges and liquid assets, with retirement from military pension to himself... and my attorneys have let him do this for years.

Obviously, he didn't care about the mother of his children going immediately hungry and homeless, seeking help with the matter. So why would the attorneys representing me not care to relieve my stress with some emergency relief from my spouse?

He was in a hurry to get rid of me because I got in the way of his happiness, and he thought it would all work out for him and his mistress. He is mistaken and misguided because it is written: 

All things work together for the good of those who love the LORD; those who are called according to his purpose... consider the fruits of the Spirit: honesty and abiding by his commandments.

More than twenty years invested into this marriage, and here I am with just the clothes off my back and a dead-end job for me to lie on my taxes and claim single while he kept my young school-age children against my will with parental alienation, all the while still married.

I don't lie, nor do I make it a practice to lie. I don't cheat or manipulate, which is another term for dishonest workmanship. 

I'm not okay, and I haven't been okay, and my primary care provider pissed me off today during my visit with him in his office.

I signed for no audio recording, pictures, or videoing; I do not consent to that nowadays because of the abuse of trust I've encountered. Still, he decided to go against my wishes and signed off request.

He decided to record my voice with his phone recording on. Men are idiots! I realize it doesn't matter the degree they've earned; they can be the most inconsiderate and insensitive piece of work. Violating patients' rights and clients' confidentiality. 

Too much corruption and no accountability for unethical behaviors going against human dignity. Human life and human dignity need to be respected. Somehow I seem to think this is a result of my case litigation.