I was recently diagnosed with bipolar, tho I feel I have battled with it all my life. It's ok some days but today it's bad, very bad. All I do is cry, I have outrages outbursts sometimes that often get me into trouble. I wanna stop I do not wanna be this way. I wish I had a switch to turn off the voices in my head and the loneliness I feel. It's as if i'm encaged in my own mind not being able to move foward only backward. The meds only make me sleepy or grouchy and my family hate me when i'm on them or when i'm off them. I have no support system and no one to talk to. I can not tell people my dilema or they think I am crazy. I once told my friend about it and they no longer talk to me. My mom says im freakish because I have bipolar and that I should quit school, give her my children and file for disability. I resent this, just because I have bipolar does not make me crazy, although sometimes I wonder if what they say is true. Im always sad unless im on my extreme high days were i feel invinsible. Is there no help for me?