manic i have too much energy
depressed i don't have enough
sometimes i cycle rapidly... sometimes i have steadier periods


i am overcoming heaps of ptsd.

" too much " and not enough is hard to explain because the way they suck it is actually painful in my body.

BP1 -

hypomania
full blown mania
depression
psychosis (but not in all cases)

BP2

hypomania
depression
psychosis (again not in all cases)

the difference is mania.. hypomania is a lighter version of mania but not as severe

oh and mania often times can lead to psychosis

with BP2... I think its a lot rarer and is related to depression not hypomania

http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/healthprofessionals/bipolardisorder/bipolaribipolarii.cfm

BP2 people will always comment on BP1 more than BP1s can remember.

BP1 people trigger some weird shit with me that BP2 people don't.

what about them max?

candidness? ..

arrogance?

i don't judge a bp2 experience, because i've had terrible depression.. so i know it too.

I'm BP1, the mania is servere, mine lasts up to 5 days of constant mania, the recovery time is even worst, I'm hyper as hell and people can't keep up with me I'm move and speak to fast. Plenty of arrogance with no tackt at all.

I'm BP1. The difference. Well I've just had a hypomanic episode before. The main difference between a hypomanic and full-manic episode for me anyway usually deals with how well I can control myself. In hypomania everything is amazing and great. I am very productive and am fine. Life is wonderful.
For full-mania. I go through hypomania and then theres a point in there where I just loose it. I see myself as God, I can do anything, and no one is getting in my way. I loose control of everything, go into psychosis and can't control anything anymore. The voices don't stop. I feel possessed cause I can't control anything anymore. I also become very very hypersexual, and everything is still amazing. The problem is I'm so delusional I can't function right with the rest of the world. Things start falling apart, yet I don't see them as. I try harder and harder to do better at everything and go faster and faster. No one can understand me cause I'm going so fast, and I go into a non-functional state. From there everything goes downhill and I crash. It just simply goes from good to too far!
Great experience, but very destructive.

I am BP 2 and can agree totally with ruby blue (reply # 3).

I am BP 2 with psychotic features.

I was given prednisone in September last year and life has NOT been the same since if I am honest. Part of me lives in fear.

My point is that I have psychotic features and go homicidal. I especially want to kill my son when in this state. Fortunately I do have the police department on speed dial just in case.

LET ME BE CLEAR MY SON IS AN ADULT LIVING WITH ME NOT A SMALL CHILD.

I went off Lithium and started homicidal ideation again. Fortunately it is controllable FOR NOW.

My former pdoc explained it this way when I asked him about my diagnosis.

He said the reason that he was not diagnosing me as BP 1 is that when I had the psychotic features I know they are not real. (i.e. talking to and seeing the dead). I tend to stay lucid enough to check myself in to the hospital but have only done so twice.

He homicidal ideation thing scares the hell out of me though.

I did NOT mean to hijack your thread and I apologize if I have droned on I just needed to talk I suppose.

Thanks if you have gotten this far.

unipolar depression can also have psychosis

as can myriad other things.