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CRAP!!!!!
I went over 5 years without cutting and a few months ago, I broke that streak. I've have more trouble but was able, barely, to resist...until tonight. I cut myself about 30 times. That might actually be a record for me. Yay me (O_o). so now I have to start all over again. Do you think cutting is like alcoholism? They say an alcoholic is always an alcoholic but just becomes a recovered alcoholic. I feel like this compulsive desire will never go away. For the rest of my life, I will forever be a tenuously recovered cutter.
Also, my med situation is really fucked up. I ran out of my seraquil about 3 weeks ago and I'm still waiting for my refill to get here. I also ran out of three of my other medications in the past few days. I already called them in but I'm going to have to borrow money to get them. My new pdoc is probably going to be pissed when I go to my next check up on a couple weeks. I just started the seraquil a couple of months ago and missing the last three weeks isn't really the best way to see how well it's working.....and the 30 cuts on my arm and leg are a testament to how well no meds at all work for me. Now I have to worry about hiding the cuts since I only own two long sleeve shirts (I've always hated them).
Also my little brother is staying with me for a little while and I REALLY don't want him to see them. If it was just a couple I could try to blame it on a stray cat. There is no rational excuse (lie) that can explain that amount of cuts. sigh. I'm a shitty role model.
I went over 5 years without cutting and a few months ago, I broke that streak. I've have more trouble but was able, barely, to resist...until tonight. I cut myself about 30 times. That might actually be a record for me. Yay me (O_o). so now I have to start all over again. Do you think cutting is like alcoholism? They say an alcoholic is always an alcoholic but just becomes a recovered alcoholic. I feel like this compulsive desire will never go away. For the rest of my life, I will forever be a tenuously recovered cutter.
Also, my med situation is really fucked up. I ran out of my seraquil about 3 weeks ago and I'm still waiting for my refill to get here. I also ran out of three of my other medications in the past few days. I already called them in but I'm going to have to borrow money to get them. My new pdoc is probably going to be pissed when I go to my next check up on a couple weeks. I just started the seraquil a couple of months ago and missing the last three weeks isn't really the best way to see how well it's working.....and the 30 cuts on my arm and leg are a testament to how well no meds at all work for me. Now I have to worry about hiding the cuts since I only own two long sleeve shirts (I've always hated them).
Also my little brother is staying with me for a little while and I REALLY don't want him to see them. If it was just a couple I could try to blame it on a stray cat. There is no rational excuse (lie) that can explain that amount of cuts. sigh. I'm a shitty role model.
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Hang in there. I'm a cutter also, and I told my younger brother (or rather he found out). He was more concerned than judging. Who knows, maybe talking to him about it will help both of you. Who knows he might already know.
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