Big hugs !

OK...you slipped , and injured yourself .

Today is day 1 of not injuring yourself . It's a new start for you.

As far as your Mom bugging you about your weight. Can you have your Pdoc tell Mom that many bipolar meds cause weight gain, and not much can be done about it .

I am assuming you are on meds ?

Anyway, I'm wishing you well

Hugs
dd

Mom sounds like a bitch and in my growing up I would have told her enough so she would have cried. Then we would be civil to each other for fear of unrest.

Sometimes it is good just to tell her that.

Falling off the wagon is a part of recovery. Just pick yourself up, brush yourself off and go on as you have been before all this happened. You were honest and held yourself accountable, by telling us, and that shows you are using your very wise mind. Congratulations on making this very wise decision. Hugs to you today :)

big hugs from me too. so true d. day one. new start. good vibes bein sent ur way.

please do not beat yourself up. so you slipped. you can start afresh. no biggie. it is not easy. last friday night i nearly went insane with the pressure to cut. i didn't in the end and am still battling the temptation, but if it happens, it happens. is your mom paying you rent to be in your head? serve her with an eviction notice! also not easy. you will have to keep telling her to get out of your head but if you keep telling her and try thinking of nicer things people have said to you it does help. of course it is difficult because we only hear the negative comment screaming at us from all angles. maybe try sitting down and writing some good things down on a post it or something like 'you're at a good weight for you right now and looking good' 'you are doing the best you can and doing it well' and taking the list out now and then to look at. good thoughts to you and best of luck with it. big fat hugs...you look absolutely fabulous today, your hair looks amazing and i love the outfit you have on! you go girl!!

When people judge other the better be perfect! What she said should build you up. Maybe she has goo intentions but could be tactful and loving way. Some things are bettr left unsaid. I duuno maybe she feels that you would be happier thinner. Usually when others do that they have issues of their own and transposing onto you to feel better. I understand it is very painful. We all want love with no strings attached or for other to change us. You are well aware of what you look like you don't need hurtful reminders. Set your boundaries and tell her if she has nothing nice to say it at all, in a loving way you can and express the pain it causes. Most moms don't want to hurt , they think they are helping rather than providing solutions that would build you up and motivate you because she is supportive and can love you unconditionally. unconditional. being heavier is actually healthier than too skinny, unless you are obese. It is not her to motivate you, you have to choose it to be successful vou lAnd meds can make you gain weight.Don;t sweep yur feelig ner the rug, be tactile an aske her stop and provide postive and constructive thin to say or remove yurself from the pain

My mom loves me - she is as cold as ice, and incapable of saying one nice word - EVER.... not my imagination.

She worries when I"m sick - not kindly, she gives me money the last couple years, at almost 50! We could not communicate for decades, as I couldn't handle her coldness and she ALWAYS SAYS THE WORST THING... I don't know how she does it LMAO but she manages...

I've learned - if my mom is a bitch 99 times, and I'm crying wishing I had a Mommy the 100th - who is more wrong, her or me?

Your Bipolar with self injury problems - whether you like it or not, you NEED to be accepted and loved....

Your mother is NEVER going to change - so you need to remove the triggers! I do it by counting the insults - Instead of being hurt, if she talks about my weight, that is ONE, if she ask about my life, just to criticize, that is two....

When upset I come on DS and post my frustration, or call close friends that are kind and compassionate, my "Mommy" friends....

Accept your mother is mean and sick, learn how not to take it personally - work on removing YOUR TRIGGERS and quit wishing you could change her, you can't - and she can't change you!

Acceptance does not mean approval - but really, if she is always horrible, then its Your problem to fix, not hers! ((((BIG HUG)))) this is the story of my life, and my mother loves me the best she can - just like I try and be the best I can - which means I'm responsible for my own feelings and how I choose to handle things....

I choose to KNOW she doesn't do it on purpose - she's just a bitch, she has NO Idea how she hurts me, she thinks all mothers are hard - and really, the few past generations are all about be good to your kids, thousands of years - abuse and neglect was the way!!!! Of course we want affection, kindness and EVERYTHING we WANT - but picking our parents personalities? Is not one of our choices!

Learn to hide your goat - your peace should be protected when your around her, but Knowing ahead of time - how to not bite, kick, hurt, or hurt yourself!!!!!

That's what I do, how I work it, and I am a lot better then all the years I cried over hurt feelings -again - if she ask about your weight 99 times, why are you hurt or surprised the 100th? Get over it and laugh in your head - that she is predictable, broken record! Work on yourself, not wanting to change others.... its impossible : )

Great big hug of comfort for you sweetie....I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now...
I agree that you had a slip and can start again as of now.... Treat yourself with kindness off .. You deserve it...x

My mom is awful about my weight. I have lost a bunch in the last year and NOW she is always telling me that I look great now - but that I "waddled" and had a "great big moon face" when I was heavier. She thinks it's funny too, she imitated the way I used to walk (well how she thought I used to walk) and laughed and laughed. No idea that that was hurtful. Some people have no emotional IQ at ALL. You have no control over her but you have control over how you react to her and how you allow her to make you feel... don't give in to feeling bad about it!

OMG! Halter I'm cracking up over here!!! When I lost a bunch of weight, not only did I get you look great - I got a warning not to lose too many (I'm guessing she can't see me smaller then here) THEN last week after leaving the ER in pain, LOL I see her and she asked "Have you gained weight?" If it wasn't so funny, it would hurt - but it doesn't!

I swear to you - my mother has ZERO idea it's negative! Of course if I say it is, I'm not taking my meds, or I"m too sensitive - LOL not good to disagree with Mommy Dearest - ..
.who loves me, damnit! : )

Once you laugh instead of cry - it gets so much better! Till then keep posting! You are not alone my friend.....

Yes, its lots of work and practise - doesn't happen over night.... Alanon helped me alot. Acceptance is such a huge thing, but when you do accept someone totally, it removes the sting ((((BIG HUG))))

I also want to say, addiction is a battle - your either moving towards a slip, or away from one. Please, I agree with others - start over, and take our support and just move away, we do care and totally understand!