Cant you get in to doc sooner, you should be able to voice your concerns

i agree with brooke shlay, you shouldn't have to suffer like this, call your doctor ande tell him you need to see him right away hugs

I sure can relate to every bit of what you are talking about and it's one of the lonliest places to be emotionally.I especially understand the pushing others away and the feeling of being in the third person.
Now the question is what to do about it?
1.) Can you try and get an earlier appointment with your doctor?
2.) Is there anyone you can call to come over and talk some of this over with
3.)Do you ever just try and let yourself have these crappy feelings and just caulk them up to the disorder and hang in there til the appointment.
Sometimes I don't write how I mean to come across,and all I want to do is help so I'm sorry if I wrote anything wrong. I'm here if you just want to talk and I hope the depression subsides soon my name is Brian and I'm always willing to help in any way I can.

I tried to get in to see my doc sooner but no such luck. I'm going to try to find a new place maybe. I'm sick of my doc not addressing my issues.

i can deff relate,i have suffered my worst depression of my life for the past almost 2 years!i was able to fake it with a phony smile on my face, going to work and everything 'till begining of this past june when everything fell apart and i could no longer fake it,i was taking all my meds but,it was me not accepting life on lifes terms,the suicide thoughts were overwhelming me and i finally checked into outpatient phyck services for 2 weeks of intense therapy and that helped a lot!altho i'm still depressed it is quite managable and i feel like i can go back to work without those bad thoughts in my head,i am in therapy twice a week now instead of once and i'm trying to deal with life on it's own terms(life is not going to be "my way" and i have to accept that)acceptance is hard but,to do that will maybe help you to feel better,it has for me,i truly hope you feel better soon!i was exactly where you are right now and didn't think it possible to get out of my black hole but here i am doing so much better!!lots of hugs to you,i really do care!!

Have you ever considered going to psychiatric nurse practitioner? You can often get an appt with one quicker, and they are more involved in your care than a pdoc. Mine spends an hour with me each appt. We do med management and psychotherapy.

He also saved my life, after a few too many pdocs almost screwed it up!

I can def relate. The most miserable place on earth. Hope it lifts for you soon. Hugs.

Be sure when you get to your dr you tell him everything.

yes ksmimi has a very good point,my brother sees his therapist and does not talk about his REAL issues therefore he get zero help!i tell him the conversation goes no further then the drs. office but he still does not open up.oh well there's only so much you can do to help a person,it's just hurts to see ppl hurting.