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as the days pass, do you change? we all grow

malibumark
malibumark

i guess what I am dealing with now is the each day I seem to change and rebound from what


the day gives me, and what I give to the day. Does that make sense?


I was at work today and my mind started 'ticking away' as some contrasting themes in my life.


I feel unloved and 'unliked' by some people and yet then moments of warmth and support from others.


Who are we really as individuals? Sorry I don't mean to be weird. I think though - after some positive support 


from a friend who inspires me to say "I have had a difficult set of circumstances to cope with - and so I can't get along


with everyone" I just can't lose the integrity - the integral thought that I am valuable and loved and cared about.


I know we can't be friendly all the time... and then I also thought about if we try to be principled in life - we can also be hippocrats at times too. I think I just want to hold fast to those around me. I especially love and appreciate my DS.org family.


This is a place where I feel like my normality is ok to talk about. I appreciate this place though I love it 'out there' too.


I guess there are just pieces to a puzzle that make up each life we have. I keep looking for it to make sense.. I wish I didn't feel like such a sloppy joe - hehe Peace all!

malibumark
malibumark
sorry, kind of a weird post ..
iwontbackdown1
iwontbackdown1
You hit the mark with your post. Thanks.
Personally, I change ALL the time, can't even count the ways or times. Being bipolar is the nature of this creature's beast. I sometimes hate what I've just enjoyed; making sense out of that isn't easy for me ~ not at all.
It is who I am, though. So, I do keep on trying as best as I can. Puzzles aren't for me. I've too many missing pieces and I'm not artistic at all so can't make my own pieces to the 'puzzles' of life fit....so, I visit, talk, listen, post, reply, message and hug....or not. Again, great post and thanks.:)
malibumark
malibumark
thanks very much!
arfie
arfie
Who or what in Nature gets to live more than a day and die in the same state they were born in? Everything in Nature is on its way to becoming something else, one microscopic change at a time. I have to bite my tongue bloody when I listen to a 40 year old tell me they are the same as they were in High School. Are there no mirrors in your life? No recent photographs?

Awareness of the change is another subject, entirely.

Yes, it is a weird post, but. . . Weird spots are part of Nature's Way. So are Sloppy Joes in Arf Camp. My Sloppy Joe recipe has been known to make strangers forget they were on there way to the camp restroom.
malibumark
malibumark
LOL hahah - thanks arfie!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you sweets...I think when I've really seen what a difference a day makes is when I have journal ed...it's very clear to me then how we are constantly evolving, changing to and from
I don't think that I personally care too much about having the approval of,someone that I don't really know..
They can go ahead and pass me by
We can sit and eat sloppy Joe's Marky... big hug...xo
malibumark
malibumark
thanks Jan!!
DoorMAwss
DoorMAwss
I heat you, Mark - reminds me of a quote that says, "we are the Sum Total of all our experiences". While I believe that's only true in part, it explains how our views on things kinda expand over the years.

What do you think?
malibumark
malibumark
yeah, I agree. All people 'with struggles like ours' or 'not' go through an evolution in life. We get practiced with dealing with things - and as one person said to me, we also need and want different things at different times- but I think we also put how we evolve into our "view of life" and so maybe in that sense - hopefully -with age we expand like you said - with our 'habit of learning and growing' time and again we get better practiced at dealing with things- even if just a little bit more.
GuildedButterfly
GuildedButterfly
I can totally relate to your "weird post." It totally makes sense to me. I also suffer from OCD et BD. I can like one thing one minute then not like it the next. It's truly hard for most people to get it. I guess they just think I'm crazy, but I'm at the point in my life that I just don't care what they think. Life is to short to worry about opinions of others. I feel terribly hurt by my so called "besties." Dealing w/ the same issues each day et the new issues also does help gives us a daily way of dealing w/ life whether right or wrong.
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