Here it is, again.  Depression has crept up on me, making me miserable.  All I can do at this time is sit here and cry on and off.  

About a month ago I developed Vertigo that isn't going away.  I saw my Dr about this and she referred me to a neurologist.  I have an appointment with the neurologist on September 25th.  They couldn't get me in any sooner.  It's such a long time to wait for answer for what's causing this.  Meanwhile I have to put up with the dizziness and feeling of pressure on the left side of my head.  That's the side I had Bell's Palsy on and it feels slightly numb since the Vertigo started.

There's so many things I need and want to do but because of the fatigue this has caused it's hard for me to much of anything.  I feel so trapped in my own body and mind.

I don't have a big support system.  Much of my family works and don't live near me.  My son gets angry when I cry.  His grandmother who we live with doesn't understand what I'm going through and isn't the comforting type of person.  My friends also moved away.  I don't really have any friends nearby.  My boyfriend lives an hour away.  He is kind and compassionate but I don't want to wear out our relationship with my problems.  I'm afraid of wearing out my family and friends with my problems, too.

You would think that after having bp for so many years that I would be used to it but it's still painful as always.  All I can do for now is ride it out like I've done so many times before.