Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Angry and depressed.

TC40
TC40

I am a horrifying mix of depression and SEVERE irritability. I feel like crying uncontrollably and pounding my fist through the wall at the same time. I am very angry at the way I am treated by family and coworkers to name a few. I know that I am judged by my size. I don't blame people. I am a fat, ugly pig.  I am angry at myself for becoming a huge, hideous fat hog. I am uncomfortable and in pain most of the time. It hurts to walk or stand. I have no energy AT ALL. it's my fault. I have been taking the long route of suicide by gaining weight. It's not working. All it has done is make things worse. when I lay dowN at night, I beg Jesus to please take me. I have a clock in my place that I watch the clock tick and think that every second that goes by is one less second that I will have to live.  

arfie
arfie
Ouch.

Would you like some tacks to put on the ends of your medieval priest self-flagellation whip? Perhaps some dung-laced vinegar salt to rub in the wounds to keep them from healing too quickly?

Ouch again. I pray to Jesus, and my own deities as well, that you find a glimmer of self-compassion. I offer you some of mine until you grow some of your own.

Hope healing happens here.
sweetguy123
sweetguy123
No one can claim to understand or comprehend the extent of what you may be going through. There is no easy answer or magic solution but only that you have to accept who you are and forgive yourself and others. I am fat too and weight can added to your body because of factors like body metabolism, activity, medicine side effects.

Anger probably need a positive outlet like focusing on doing things you love. You have done one positive act already to express what you are feeling and that is a step in the right direction.

Just thank Jesus and pray to him that he reduces the pain that you may be experiencing
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