your not alone that's for sure. I really don't have much family or friends support when comes to my depression and anxiety. They jus don't get it unless they have experienced it before. Its tough sometimes jus making it through the day with this stuff. I know god has been by my side on my toughest days. I know I can always count on him to listen. I'm glad I found this site cause many people here understand what your going through. Jus helps to talk with others who know and understand you.

I'm sorry you are feeling down. Withdrawing from people and not having friends available are signs you should be talking this out for sure. Pros and cons of your decisions... all that sort of stuff. Good luck as you search for answers.

Thanks China70

So I had some long post and it didn't even send anything but the first line. Sorry. I'm not re typing it all. Good point moobbusT. I hadn't thought about it that way. I am extra stressed lately.

I am sorry you are feeling so alone! I am glad you reached out, though. Getting support here is a great way to start. Transition with friendships can be a really difficult one, as you feel less supported through the transition. Even though you feel the friends you are still in contact with aren't able to be as supportive as you need, I am glad you are able to keep ties with one of your friendships- so important to have.
Have you looked into participating in any new activities or social events to meet new people? I know for me, I had to let go of friends a few years ago and during the time of feeling alone, I forced myself to go do social outings in order to meet new friends- and I met lifelong/super supportive and close friends through it.
You definitely aren't alone. Friendships are difficult and I would guess many people have been through periods where they have felt alone as they find true friends.

Well you're certainly not alone. I lost all of my social support because of this illness. But they were toxic people too. I get lonely but I do have my sisters, parents, and my fur baby. Surrounded by people somehow I still get lonely.

I understand. I've lost some friendships that were an important part of my life...and some I chose to step away from...and some are distanced and busy with family and children. It's hard when you're trying to get out there again and you have the weight of mental health past, at least for me. But I'm still trying. I think it's important to step outside of the mental illness and diagnosis, even though symptoms are real struggles. If that makes any sense. That's where therapy has helped me, to feel like myself again after all the labels and start to find confidence again.

I do want to join social activities but I get really anxious thinking about going anywhere social alone.

It's just going to be a difficult transition rn. I know it will get better. Some of my friends were toxic, some were unphased by my issues and actually mean, some just drifted out and weren't really there anymore. I actually had someone I called my best friend insult me today. I struggle w keeping weight on when I'm stressed. I have a lot of stressful things going on. I told her I had lost weight and she literally said "you probably look disgusting." Really? How is that helpful? She's just being cruel. anyways I'm rambling but thank you all for your support. It does help to know people I don't even know listen and offer suggestions. Thank you!

Big hug for you Elle..... I'm sorry you're feeling so alone.... I understand not wanting to be around people who are toxic to us for sure.... Boundaries are important
We are all imperfect beings though so I think doing some more thinking on it is a good thing.....xo

Hey Girl, :-( so sorry the way you feel, sometimes we need to go through something to realize that we do miss someone / people / friend in our lives. Be strong I pray for you and let pic up the pieces that are broken with friendships and stick them all back together those that don"t stick and fall off then they weren't meant to be. Big hug for you xx

Hi, I hear your being challenged with relationships, this can be good, yet hard at the same time. With bp I've found isolation from friends to be one of my first signs of a depression coming on...my brain goes into 'I hate my life, no one likes me, I'm a burden...blah blah" and so it goes. Then the friends, real friends, I'm blessed with 3 who "get me" yet I don't hear from much, who I have to call, I can just think about them, and feel a tiny bit better knowing they are in my life. Recently a friend who I had a relationship with for over 30 years became so toxic, she had bp, yet our lives were going in totally opposite ways, we are no longer in contact. For quite sometime, I questioned my behaviors, thoughts etc. about this person and our relationship...in the end, I think the right decision was made. So it is hard to let go of people you know, yet sometimes this is needed for new people to come into your life. Perhaps you could google your area for bp support groups, or NAMI groups, and emotions anonymous groups. We all need and want relationships, you have come to a site where we do understand and do what we can to support. Take care, ml