Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I found out that my gallbladder needs to be removed. It isn't an emergency. But it has been giving me problems for awhile. I am probably
Going to have to wait. I am afraid I will not get hired at my temp job if I have to take time off. Also, I won't get paid if I miss work. I am scared to have surgery because I am afraid they will tell me I have cancer again. They found cancer in my appendix during my appendectomy in 2007. It was a routine surgery and it resulted in a diagnosis of life threatening cancer. There is a very strong chance that it could have returned. It is scary. Also, it is usually a surgery that can be done through a scope. However, due to all of the surgery I had in my abdominal area from the stupid cancer, there may be too much scar tissue to do it that way. Which would result in another major surgery.
And meanwhile, the depression rages on. When I was at the hospital overnight, they actually GAVE me my night and morning meds. This has changed for the better. Back when I had my major cancer surgeries and I was in the hospital for almost two weeks, I was NOT given them and it created a whole new problem for my situation.
So many things going on. I am afraid I am not going to get hired at my temp job. I shouldn't be afraid of being diagnosed with cancer again. I'm more afraid to live than I am to die.
Going to have to wait. I am afraid I will not get hired at my temp job if I have to take time off. Also, I won't get paid if I miss work. I am scared to have surgery because I am afraid they will tell me I have cancer again. They found cancer in my appendix during my appendectomy in 2007. It was a routine surgery and it resulted in a diagnosis of life threatening cancer. There is a very strong chance that it could have returned. It is scary. Also, it is usually a surgery that can be done through a scope. However, due to all of the surgery I had in my abdominal area from the stupid cancer, there may be too much scar tissue to do it that way. Which would result in another major surgery.
And meanwhile, the depression rages on. When I was at the hospital overnight, they actually GAVE me my night and morning meds. This has changed for the better. Back when I had my major cancer surgeries and I was in the hospital for almost two weeks, I was NOT given them and it created a whole new problem for my situation.
So many things going on. I am afraid I am not going to get hired at my temp job. I shouldn't be afraid of being diagnosed with cancer again. I'm more afraid to live than I am to die.
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Mom and I have errands to run this morning. She said we can get sushi for lunch though. I go back to work today. What are you looking forward to this weekend?
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Quick, before the evil MONday gets here! Let's climb those mountains, dance in the meadows, dip our feet in the ocean....Okay, so most of us won't be doing any of That. Sadly. But today can still be a great day!The area behind our back fence is on an incline, with less than two feet on even ground at the top. I don't balance well enough for the incline, but our mower guy mows that...
Think positive thoughts...2 oncologists told me that a positive attitude is necessary for a good outcome.
I wouldn't ignore praying either or reaching out to the universe for help. It's a hard thing to deal with, but positive things could happen.
Take a deep breath...you will get through this. Don't look at the big picture, take it one day at a time.