Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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heretic 07/26/2011

I have so many mixed emotions going on right now. I find myself being really angry over all kinds of things, some of which happened years ago. Then I'll feel depressed at having a generally crappy life. Then I'll have extreme anxiety over stuff going on at work. All together I feel kinda manic, but depressed at times too. Is this what is meant by a mixed state? I've faithfully taken my meds and I'd say they are working really good, But I've been smoking weed too and I'm sure there is some interaction with my meds there. So I feel like a mess right now. Like everything in my life is outta control and going downhill fast. I take Geodon, Wellbutrin, Seroquel and Vistaril for anxiety, so I've been occassionally increasing the Vistaril, when what I really need is to have my entire life fixed. Fat chance that's gonna happen, so how to deal with a sucky life. A crappy job and nonexistent social life. Oh yeah, and lot's of self pity thrown in there too. Sure wish I felt better. Thanks for letting me vent, hugs are appreciated...

deleted_user 07/26/2011

*hugggggs*, heretic. I hear ya -

:/

deleted_user 07/26/2011

yeah bi-polar sucks......screwed up my life in so many ways it is REALLY quite ridiculous....just gotta fight on I suppose I have no answers to the B.S. we have to deal with!

CarlaBent 07/26/2011

Ugh!! What a horrible way to feel!!! I hope this state, whatever it is, lifts soon and that you feel a Hell of a lot better!!! (((((Hugs)))))

deleted_user 07/27/2011

I hear ya heretic. It sure sounds like a mixed state.

I have only heard bad things about weed and mental health so I would stop using it if I were you. But that's just me.

I have no magic words, just know that I care and want the best for you.

deleted_user 07/27/2011

I use to smoke weed quite reguarly. It took a lot to get off it. It does play havoc with our extremes.

I do miss it in one way but I don't in many others.

deleted_user 07/27/2011

Yeah, I've read a few articles where there is more schizophrenia in people who use weed than in the general population.

My dad blames my bipolar on the two times I used it. I don't agree though, there were signs before that but he just never saw me.

Is your life bearable without the weed heretic?

heretic 07/27/2011

Yeah, Perx and Shining Soul are right, the weed messes me up more than helps me. I will probably end up smoking the little I have left but then I will stop. I guess I feel like my life is so empty that weed is the only small comfort I can find in it. But... overall the weed just makes me more paranoid and so I'll have to stop. If only I could fix the rest of my life as easily. Thanks for caring

deleted_user 07/27/2011

I don't do weed, but have heard it messes you up on these meds. I really hope things start getting better for you. HUGS hun.

deleted_user 07/27/2011

Hugs, Ekat.

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