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The past year has been very up and down for me and not just with battling the bipolar. In my impusiveness, I would tell lies about myself or my life to those around me. For the most part it was nothing major. However, it kept escalating. I know that it should of been easy to be honest but it wasn't. There is one guy that I was friends with. He loved me....literally loved me. I was not interested in him that way. He hung around thinking there may be a chance, even though I had said no. I never told him that I was seeing somone, very seriously. It got carried away and we became good friends and I didn't know how to be honest. I got married like a month ago. I hadnt even told him I was seeing someone. Through my course of therapy, I am working on being more forthright and doing more positive actions. He was one of those things I was going to fix. The problem is that he somehow found my facebook page with my new name on it. ( i had him and his friends blocked and I have intense privacy settings so I dont know how he even found it) So Monday morning....like 1am, I got a picture message text from him. It was just a pic of my facebook page. I responded saying that I didnt know how to tell him, im sorry and that I dont expect to hear back from him. (in a much longer, nicer way). So now I am concerned that he may do something to me......like damage my car or try to hurt me. I know it seems a little paranoid (which I may be). We have had conversations about if something horrible like that would happen or he finds me in a lie.....he said I would be cut from his life, I wouldnt be able to find him or anything.....so what do I do? I am scared but it could be the paranoia. Sorry, my mind is racing.
charmingdisaster
He was never violent ever. I deep down don't think so but on the other hand, you never know when someone is that upset and mad. We were that close.....known each other for years now. It will be very hard for me to do nothing. I want to try to get a hold of him but I keep stopping myself. Thank you.
heretic
what a tangled web we weave... I'd say the first step is to be honest with the people in your life. Does your husband know about this former friend? I hope he is being supportive. Keeping secrets is always stressful.
charmingdisaster
No kidding! My husband has known the whole time and has been pushing for me to handle it long ago. I just didnt have the courage to. As of now, everyone in my life knows the truth.
charmingdisaster
I am not thinking you are a bitch at all. I need the advice. I am just worried that hes that mad at me that he may try something. Although if I try to think about it rationally, I don't think so.....Im so worried though or at least paranoid. And I will never do that ever again. I am sick from all of this.
charmingdisaster
Doing nothing is the best thing? Am I being irrational thinking he would do something to me? I am trying to stick with being honest which is a hard thing for me as I am learning. Lying was easy for me but makes these messes that end up making me feel sick.
charmingdisaster
So far it has all come back to bite me in the ass. I really don't have any reason except that hes that upset and I dont know what hes thinking or what he would be capable of since he is that hurt. I did crush him. He did nothing wrong. Always treated me like a princess. He was a very good friend and I crushed him.
charmingdisaster
I dont want to stay awake and look out my window. I dont want to call the police.....I dont have much reason to. I want to call his friends but I have been completely locked out of that circle. If they did answer me, they would probably lie anyways. I am guessing he is as ok as he is gonna get. I hope hes not planning to do anything to me.
charmingdisaster
If I think about it, he has never done anything violent or damage anything of anyone's through our friendship. I keep thinking this is an extreme case where he will actually do something.
charmingdisaster
You are helping a lot. I wasn't looking at it that way at all. I haven't cried or been mad at myself yet. I did lie and really hurt someone badly in the process. I need to look at myself instead of distracting myself into worrying about something else. Thank you so much!! I really appreciate it. I need to work things out in my head to be ok and now I see what I have been doing which you helped a lot. I have to go to bed because I have to work early but I will message you tomorrow. Thank you again!!
deleted_user
What you did was a terrible thing. You had no right to do that to him, or anyone. IS this how you treat all your friends, like yesterday's garbage? How could you even live with yourself. You really are dishonest and how can I believe anything coming out of your mouth?
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