I always feel alienated and I hate being alone. Yes, many times online there are great people. I have several good friends online. One person here is a good acquaintence and the other is an actual friend whom I wish that I could be closer to. So, yes, if I could be alone I would, but I need people. I get along better though with DS people than folks on the other forum.

I've felt Isolated and alienated. And still do. But I am a social creature and hate being lonely. I find making new friends and talking to people I can trust about BP or life helps a great deal. But doing just that is the very difficult part. DS people have been tremendous in me feeling I can share my struggles, just knowing you all have been though similar circumstances with your illness lifts the fear of rejection from weighing me down. :) Thanks everybody. :)

I feel alienated but I have learned to accept it. I live with my daughter and her children so I don't really feel lonely. The alienation is my choice in a way if that makes sense. I really don't reach out to people and don't have a real desire to put the kind of work in a relationship that it takes to make a local friend.

i have a few people in the real world i feel connected to. But, they they have a habit of banging on my door at times that loneliness is my preference.

Yet i have friends online which don't allow me the comfort of seclusion as they are persistent without being intrusive. And they tend to be more gentle in their persuasion.

Yeah, i'm a sociopath.

I am another person who feels isolated and alienated pretty often. I have found that going to DBSA meetings and group therapy helps me feel a bit more connected. I really have no idea what else I can do. The only place I ever feel connected is online.

Right now, I think I might be a little hypomanic though because I'm a chatterbox who will talk to anyone. Yesterday, I was giving the secretary in my pdoc's office advice on where to put a second trash barrel.

I definitely feel alienated, but I go through cycles. Sometimes I'm fine and I reach out to friends and family, and go out, and so on.

Sometimes I have periods where I can't be around anyone, and isolate myself completely, breaking social dates, not going out, even skipping work.

It happens a few times every month.

When I'm depressed I'm anti-social. So that is most of the time. I have some friends but I don't see them or talk to them all that much. My main social contact is with my family. But now for yesterday and today I have been hypomanic and am very talkative, I just can't shut up and everything seems extra funny. I was cracking up on the way to work this morning cause Huey Lewis and the News came on the radio and i thought that was just the funniest thing;) I love the 80's it was so much fun! Oh woe is me. Sorry I'm running on aren't I? What was the point a yeah I'm basically intraverted INTP.

I appreciate you making this post, as I was going to start one on the same topic. I feel a lot of rejection among normal people and I don't deal well with that at all. I reach out and get disappointed over and over. Like Charley Brown running up to kick the ball and Lucy jerks it away time after time. Why do I keep trying to connect with these people? I want friends but I always seem to drive people away or once they find out about my history they run for the door. I go batty if I spend too much time alone, so that is not an option. Plus I live with my fiance so I can't be a hermit. I find the biggest mistake I keep making is to share real feelings with people and it seems that is a huge mistake as they just want to do small talk. How the hell do you small talk anyway? I am painfully shy around new people, and some old ones for that matter. I came back to DS because I need the feedback and friendships here. You are not alone! Drop me a line anytime.

I always wanted to grow old and be a recluse. Now that I am young and a recluse I hate it. Your thoughts get to you. Tv isn't interesting anymore and you can only be on DS for so long a day before you read every post and response in several forums.I got the gull to go volunteer with Meals on Wheels. It gets me out of the house and I really enjoy seeing the smile on the peoples faces, they are so appreciative. I had to go in today and I didn't want to but when I got home I was in a better mood. I think we have to force ourselves to live with others and not alienate ourselves. I fear rejection and really I don't want to be bothered with one on one interactions so the volunteering like this I get in and get out. I encourage you to find something to not alienate yourself from society, you just might feel better...

I am a basic extrovert...stuck inside an anxiety ridden bipolar body.

I have taken small steps to re-enter the world at large since losing my job (that's when my isolation really took hold of me )

I go to a small local coffee shop,usually a couple of times a week.
I try to get out and do some grocery shopping...
I try to do small cheerful chatty talk with people I meet...it works most of the time...and then sometimes my social anxiety just gets the best of me.

I do little steps

I'm both a people person AND a recluse!!! I do fine when I'm out in the world (although my anxiety is heightened) and am quite friendly and outgoing. I have a couple of friends who ask me to go out and do things, but I always decline. I HATE going out to do things. I am happiest home alone. I have phone anxiety, too, so I rarely use the phone. The Internet is enough socialization for me!! I think I could stay home alone for months and months without feeling lonely. I never get lonely or bored.

I don't know if I cause my alienation. I'm not talking to most of my family. However, I interpret it as their insensitivity to my feelings and having their way or no way. So, my sister hasn't talked to me in almost a year. Deep down, I don't miss her. I don't know why. Today I had a fight with my grown son, and am just tired of being cursed at and called a bitch, when I'm 55 and he is 28. Enough already. He said he is never speaking to me again and stormed out. I like being alone, but today realized that someday, if my husband passes away first (he has pancreatic cancer so that is likely) , I am going to be totally alone. The weird thoughts are who will bury me? Will they leave me unclaimed in a funeral home? I don't seem to mind being alone when I'm alive though..bizarre. I love my son, but feel if I am going to be verbally abused, I can't tolerate it. I know it is something in me, but I can't continue to kiss people's ass who denigrate me.

I like my solitude. I like being home alone. My husband is home anywhere from 6:30 at night on. I like being warned atleast a couple days ahead of time if company so I can "wrap" my head around it.

I do go places, but I don't like staying long, I want to get back home. I will talk to my friends on the phone, on here, I don't mind if they come over, just let me know.

I just like my home. No it isn't the greatest, but it is "mine". No judgement here I guess. I don't know. Just the way it is.

I volunteer in my community and have made friends through activities on behalf of my kids. I'm only close to a handful of people, as I'm considered standoffish and snobby. I don't mean to, but I'm shy and not comfortable in new situations.

This why I volunteer. Its gets me out, makes me meet people and gives me the ability to think of others.

I stopped going around others about two years ago. I only go around my family and of course my husband. Everytime I would go anywhere I feel awkward and I get the 100 question interrogation like were do I work and do I have kids and why do I now work and why do I not have kids. It became hurtful and is a slap in the face really. I don't go to church or even go grocery shopping when it is busy and occasionally I go to a restaurant or theater but only if it is not busy. I found this site and it helps me feel connected with the outside world. I also watch alot on Netflix and I have my husband thank god :) I live in the South in the United States and it is as if people expect you to have babies by a certain age especially if you are married and it is like they expect if you don't have kids you must have a job and at my age they expect a college degree and have a professional job. Even when I did work people would be like is that really what you wanna do? So I alienate myself to protect myself from the hurtful remarks and questions. People are too damn nosy LMAO