hey thelove sounds like it is a rough time don't take anymore meds till you chat with your doc and get back on the right schedule. we need you around a little longer =)

you need to be on the right meds. Ativan isn't the med for bipolar. hang on, get on the right meds and the world will look different.

hi, when was the last time you spoke to your pdoc about how you feel because l agree with the others for you to be suffering so much it sounds as if you need different meds. Please don't hole up in your room and believe the thoughts and feelings rushing through your head, you're not very well right now.

i just saw her on Friday. She upped my dose of tegretol but I'm not sure meds are the problem here. Life has just been really shitty and blow after blow has left me reeling. I can't control myself! I can't sleep and I'm just drowning in the mixed feeling of depression and rage.

your allowed to just be angry but its that fine line of not letting it trigger into something much worse especially if you brood on the bad for too long. Have you spoken about this with a therapist?

I have and he says I am suffering from Acute Stress Syndrome because I was assaulted on Tuesday and my friend has been missing for a week. I don't know what else to say except that this is all too much for me to handle in my already weakened state.

oh l'm so sorry hun you have a gret deal to cope with, did you get any techniques for coping with it all? you should give your new med dose a little time to work too and keep talking about how you feel.

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate and are trying to find a way (with Meds) to drown out the fellings that you are having. Take a minute and breathe, try to get a sense of reality in a place that is safe for you. Bite off a little piece at a time and don't try to conquer the world all at once. Best wishes.

I FEEL like my heart has been ripped out and trampled. I feel alone and helpless. Where could my friend have gone? I have a sick feeling that she is dead and there is absolutely nothing i can do! There was a massive effort to find her and now they have given up... I have given up! I just want them to find her dead or alive so that I may have some closure. As for the assault... that is just one more drop in the bucket. When i close my eyes i see it over and over again. I want to escape to my sisters but I have a court date to worry about and as I said before I cannot conceivably leave my house. I appreciate all the support but i feel I am now a lost cause.

I think I would also be beside myself with stress in your situaiton. Could you try some non-medication calming activities like a bubble bath, your favorite food, or journaling? It won't make the stressors go away but perhaps it will help you deal with them. Please be careful with the meds. I've ended up in the hospital after what I thought were little harmless tweaks on my own.

doing my best

you are not a lost cause you're in pain and probably very tired too, l know that regardless of where she is your beloved friend would not want you to suffer but come to terms. lt is possible to live with never knowing though you have time on your side to discover the truth aboout why she is missing you need to learn to hold on to that hope but not let not knowing eat you up, l know l have a mother missing for 25yrs now.

A day at a time is so true at times in our lives, its how we get by that and moving on auto-pilot but we live we survive the wounds heal it can get better, that is what everyone wants for you.