Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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Well I'm not sleeping I got 2 hours last night. I'm not doing well inside eather. Last night my husband and I went out for Halloween to a local bar. As always I could not drink so I was like the only sober person there I think. I tried to fit in with everyone I even atemped to dance ( my husband laughed) it made the evening go better. Some guy asked if he could come home with us I thought it would make my husband happy so I agreed to it. We got the guy home and I couldn't get into it all and I felt kinda sad. We joked about it after he was gone but I just wanted to cry.I am such a looser I swear. Why can't I just let things happen and not let it effecte so harshly? Today my husband got out of bed when he noticed I was up and refused to go back to bed because he was worried about me I guess. But he is being very distant. I want to talk about it all but I'm afraid I don't know how he will react he always thinks in too dramatic. I'm just very sad and I wanna explode I even got out a knife this morning to cut my chest but didn't. I hate to feel so low.
It seems like in this relationship with your husband, you are bending over backwards trying to make him happy, and sacrificing yourself in the process. I think you and he need to sit down and have a serious talk about your relationship, in terms of the things that will work for the both of you, and setting up boundaries.
A relationship is something that makes both partners happy, not just one of them!!
Hugs
There are times she doesnt want me realy there because I am a kill joy.But she want someone with her to keep the guys away.
She wanted to go to a Halloween party last night and I sai forget about me going I so tired of the normies and drunks living it up.
It makes me sad as well but I am what I am but we are not loosers we are survivors.
Try to get some rest today I think you did well under those conditions.