Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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worldofblah4 11/08/2009

Really thinking about it tonight. How to do it. What not to do. Its becoming clearer by the minute. I want it to go away. I want everything to level. I want the light to come back.

dancingd 11/08/2009

suicide is not the answer.

If you are seriously in crisis..please call 911,or seek ER treatment ,walk in and say you need help.

Save your life,so that you can see the lightness of the world.

worldofblah4 11/08/2009

I have a fear of hospitals.I cant go to one. I refuse. Im stuck.

deleted_user 11/08/2009

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.

worldofblah4 11/08/2009

Bad few days. I need to smoke again to not kill myself tonight...

dancingd 11/08/2009

Ok,so the hospital is out,I understand the fear of going into hospital...if you can't do that ,try and contact a friend,ANYONE,to come and stay with you ,until you feel better

deleted_user 11/08/2009

I agree with dancing on this one...

I know what its like, life can bring you to your knees and this disorder doesnt make it any better. Just remember that you will feel different later just hold on even if its just by a hair. Your life is worth the fight...

worldofblah4 11/08/2009

I don't know if I can hold on this time. I am not worth all the effort to put in to it, and I don't have all this energy.

worldofblah4 11/08/2009

I can feel pressure in my arms building up wanting to slice them open every moment.

deleted_user 11/08/2009

Please don't do anything rash or irreversible. Go to the ER, call 911, or call a crisis hotline. Keep reaching out and talking to us here at DS. You'll get through this. xo

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