:( Oh honey...I hate that you are hurting so bad...I just want to make it all better for you.

maybe try brainstorming ways to regain your mental and physical health and get a job instead of thinking of how to kill yourself.

i've been suicidal before...(i think most of us have), but when i fix my attention on trying to solve whatever is causing me to feel suicidal rather than on trying to end it all, i usually come up with something

maybe post on here asking for some advice and focus on the positive stuff you can do

i don't know your situation so i can't really suggest anything, help us help you

you seem to want help otherwise you wouldn't have posted this.

i really hope you can figure out a better plan than suicide...and well, ANY plan would be better

best of luck to you

I have not worked in almost a year. I have been sick and I have had a million tests and I still dont know the problem. I was given a months worth of cipro yesterday but i am not holding my breathe
I was depressed before I got sick and my life is a disaster....Other than having my mother alive my dog and a rooof over my head and maybe tv lol

please check in with ER or your doctor.

If you are still on valproate and it's not working simply tell them that. There are many other meds and these can have a dramatically positive effect on your mood.

Huge hug of comfort for you!!!...I'm so sorry you're feeling like this...When we're in a depression it feels as though we've been there forever and there is no way out... That's the illness talking and it's overwhelming at times..

Please see your doctor... There is help.... We often need to take baby steps when we're so raw and I have no doubt that your mom and your pooch love and need you very much....x

I have tried so many meds without any making a noticeable difference....I am seeing my shrink on Monday and want to discuss lithium which is the # 1 mood stabilizer in the world except here...If anyone has any comments I would like to here......I have found xanex to be very healthy but they wont prescribe it.......Like I said I have an appointment Monday and am considering inpatient again after my nephews wedding ((my shrink suggested maybe they could find my physical problem while .......... and I find this comment insulting grandiose " maybe try brainstorming ways to regain your mental and physical health and get a job instead of thinking of how to kill yourself.""

It took me three years to get onto the right med regime....I'm not sure how long you've been trying..
Lithium didn't work for me but I know that there are many people on here who it's been a godsend for..
Please hang on and don't give up... You will find stability... BP is a treatable disorder...Unfortunately it can be a different treatment it seems for all of us...
You will find stability sweetie..x

I should not of posted this. I have been planning on giving it one last try before I get drastic.., I just don't like my odds It just seems closer and my reality..I was calm last night but feeling manic today...odd.The wonderful world of being bipolar. and thankyou

IMHO I think you posted your post. It was important to you and its your right and everybody's right here to post what is of importance to them. That being said I hope that deep down inside you don't want to commit suicide and your posting was a cry for help. I believe you. I'm talking about what I believe to be in your subconciousness. sp? Please remember suicide is a permament solution and while there's life there's hope.

I can relate to and understand everything you posted . I have ben in your same exact position or place in my life as well .

I can tell you this , its not your answer to your problem or problems . The only reason I am alive to share with you now is it was not the answer for me .

I should have passed many times I failed but it gave me a chance to realize it more than just a idealization to end it .

Today I still live with suicidal idealization , but there is no way in hell I wiil give up my unlimited chances for joy , even if they may seam limited . If you need to talk , or chat and would like to learn what I have please email me at jimlucky1@yahoo.com .

I will respond ASAP , daily as well , please give it a chance !?

You have nothing to loose and a whole life to gain .

God Speed , and most of all Good luck .

IM sorry that you feel this way and I want to fill you in on a story of mine and maybe it will help. I felt useless and hopeless I had separated from my husband and my kids where with him I had nothing I went to home depot bought an industrial razor blade stole my grandfathers blood thinners rented a hotel room and got a bottle of whine I sat there drinking loathing in my self pity. I went into the bathroom and slashed my wrist and blood went everywhere it squirted onto my leg and my stomach flipped and I panicked. I didn't want to die and I was thankful that I didn't have a gun or overdosed on something because I wouldn't have had that moments of wtf am I doing! my husband came and got me and took me to the er and I admitted myself after some stitches. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem I have been where you are now and please don't make the mistake I almost did if I wouldn't have felt the warmth of the blood and seen it all I might not be here today and since that epiphany whenever I start to have a low I remember that moment and how scared I was that I was going to die please if you ever need to talk feel free to message me or even get on a yahoo group find something to divert your mind remember permanent vs temporary :)

jimlucky1 I will message youhere if that is ok. I am uncomfortable giving out email adress

Brookescwabbie that sounds like a horrible way to die. I am glad you shared your story...So if I havea question at some time you wouldnt mind a message??

Going to the dr tomorrow I have to be real careful what I say but get my point across..For some reason I want to try lithium.. I have had a couple drs and they all offer everything but....This cipro I am taking has alleviated some of the pain dealing with thankfully

I understand no problem , take care if yourself .

chris you can message me at any point this is a support group and that's what they are for :)