Well it's been a confusing few days here. Yesterday was the churches sweetheart desert, where you get to take you significant other and have chocolates, and cheesecakes, and watch the pastor sing. I ended going because my neighbors think I need out more often (which is true), so I took my best friend and we ended up having fun and it was something I won't forget. However, and there is always that however or but somewhere I just couldn't keep my mind there all the time. A friend from college ended up crashing her car the day before and apparently she had internal bleeding which took an 8 or so hour operation to fix. Normally I would be up all hours of the night talking to my friends and such to keep them calm and stuff, thats one of my major problems. I would rather take theres on than deal with mine. So this time, I told them I couldn't because of my recovery process but I'm still with them, they just have to believe and stick together. After or during surgery she fell into a coma and now it's just a wait and hope game. My friends feel like I leaving them and I don't know what to do for once. So I told them to be there for her even though she is under she knows you are there trust me, I was once under. And just pray, that's all we can do it's God's choice now. I just hope I don't lose here because I don't think I can handle it.

Does it seem like I'm being too mean to my friends because I kinda feel I am but I don't know what else to tell them.