I also cut and it is hard to resist the urge when the floor falls out and you are spiraling downward. Please call someone a friend, or if you have a crisis hotline you could call.

Hello, what always helped me through a depressed stage in my life(and their have been many)is to do something fun watch a funny movie, go eat at my favorite resturant, play a sport, go out with some friends, and basically nurture myself out of my depression and try not to berate myself in any way because I was in a fragile place in my life. Ialso posted an affirmation one thing i like about myself and placed some where I could read it everyday till I believed it was true.WEll hang in there. and remember you are one of God's special people and you are loved.
~jesseca

I'm no help tonight guys, got dark bad thought flying through my head, Call a crisis hotline, or Go to the nearest ER if you get to the point your're afraid you may carry out self harm or end it, just call 911 right away. Good luck all Maybe we coul alll pray for each other.

The one and only thing that ever helped me when I felt as though the weight of an elephant were sitting on my mind in the form of depression, was to change my perspective.

Think of your life in positive terms. And don't give me any bs about 'I can't think of anything positive'. Waaaa. You cannot afford to feel sorry for yourself. Choose something as mundane as: you are able to breathe unassisted right now. You are not mentally retarded. You have access to the internet. You obviously are in a place that has electricity. Did you eat tonite? Do you have a clean bed to sleep in tonite? You possess enough self-awareness to know you are not ok. Instead of cutting yourself and spiraling down even further, you posted a cry for help. BIG STEP. Start thinking of the people who do not have even the basic necessities that you have. THAT is changing your perspective.

Your depression sucks. I hate that you have to deal with this right now. But there is the other side. There is an end to this hell we call depression. Your thoughts will change, your situation will shift and things will start to look better. There were times I was so distraught that I literally felt as though someone had their hands around my throat and I couldn't breathe. I was usually hiding in my closet or in the corner next to the dresser. But I got through it by changing my perspective. A little trick my AA sponsor taught me. She too dealt with depression. I got through without hurting myself or anyone else. And you can too.